found / mgc

chapter four - sneaking out

I gave him my adress. After another 5 minutes of staring at the walls he texted me to get out of the house.

I don't understand why he is so nice all of a sudden. Maybe he realised that we both are in big trouble and we need to support each other. At least I need support because I feel like I am about to have an emotional breakdown.

I sneaked out of the house and ran towards his car. He opened the door for me and I got inside. It was so warm.

"You don't look good." He said laughing.

I looked at him. His hair was messy and he was wearing the same t-shirt from this morning but this time he was wearing black jeans.

"You neither." I said and he started laughing again, making me smile.

"Off we go." He said

"Where to?" I said.

"A fancy midnight snack'." He said

I nodded and he started driving. I think we both enjoy the silence, even though I am screaming on the inside since I found out that Susan is missing.

"Maybe I don't show it Ella," he said "But I am scared too."

"Police will find her." I didn't believe myself so I don't expect him to.

We were silent until we reached our destination.

We got pumpkin pie because it my favourite and because Michael had never tried a pumpkin pie before. It is not as good as my mother's, but it is good enough to make me feel better. We sat in his car, listening to the radio, eating and singing. I felt really normal and relaxing, finally. But I know this won't last forever

"Are you going to school tomorrow?" He asked.

I nodded "Mark will drive me there. Kate is sick."

"I hate Kate." He said "She thinks she is the best."

"She is far from that." I said "She is just trying to make people happy."

"You two are so different, I don't know why you are friends."

I didn't say anything. He won't understand.

"You did not answer me" he said "Why are you two friends?"

"I know Kate better than anyone and I think that says enough." I said looking into his eyes "I have a question for you too."

"Let's hear it." He said looking for something, probably his cigarettes.

"Who are you?"

He stopped looking for whatever he was looking for and he looked into my eyes "That's a hard one. Not because it is too much to say, but because I don't know who I am."

"But I want to know things about you." I said.

"Why?"

"Why not?"

"I'm serious." He said.

I thought about what to answer. I just want to know him and his past, his dreams. But he wants to remain a mistery.

"Forget about it. Let's go home." I said.

He started driving. We stand in silence. For once, I wish he fought back. I am wondering why he would not tell me about himself. I wonder if I will ever know something about him besides things that everybody knows. He really is a mistery. There are many things I don't know anything about, such as whether it means anything to ask why we're here. I don't have to know an answer. I don't feel frightened not knowing things, by being lost in a mysterious universe without any purpose, which is the way it really is as far as I can tell.

It took me a while to realise that he was in front of my house.

I thanked Michael for everything and ran inside because it was really cold. I just wanted to stay in his car forever, stuck in that moment - eating pie and singing. It just felt like the world stopped and breathed, relaxed.

I went to bed hoping for a better day. They'll find Susan tomorrow and things will get back to normal. My only problem will be my acne and my weird best friend Kate, Michael will forget about my existance and everything will be like it used to be - boring but lovely.

***

I checked myself in the mirror once more and walked outside (my face froze instantly). Mark's car was parked in front of my house. He gave me a big warm hug and we both got in the car.

"They canceled the Halloween party until they find Susan." He informed me.

When I stay with Mark I feel like I am late on everything.

"I am so sorry for her. Hope they'll find her soon."

Mark shook his head "I don't think they'll find her so soon. They found her phone last night in a forest which is creepy." I turned blue and I feel like the car was spining "She could either be somewhere in that forest or the guys who kidnapped her put the phone there, to distract the policemen. Both are horrible anyway."

He stopped talking until he found a free parking place and I could feel alive again, breathing and seeing normally.

"What a crazy world we live in" he said as he stopped the car "My parents won't allow me to any party now."

I just want to get out of this car.

After he talked a little more about his parents he got out of the car and opened the door for me.

"Do you want me to take you back home?" he asked looking really worried "You look sick."

I shook my head and walked towards the school building.

Every 10 meters there was a post that said "Find Susan" with big red letters and a picture of her smiling. I just want to find a little dark hole and hide in it.

I looked around, kind of lost. Mark dissapeared and I just looked at everybody walking , girls hugging, guys shaking hands, talking loudly. I miss Kate so much right now. Her confidence makes me feel confident when we walk to classes. I wonder if Susan makes someone feel like that.

"Ella?" A really familiar voice got me out of my thoughts "Hey!"

I looked to my left and saw my amazing ex boyfriend smiling at me.

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(a/n)

OH MY GOD GUYS

Who is Ella's ex????

This chapter is short but I will post another one on Friday and it is going to be GREAT.