Adams POV
I drove home barely able to see the road through the angry tears that refused to quit. Im surprised I made it home without crashing, I unlocked the door and stumbled inside as I leant against the door. I slid down it sinking to the floor as I pulled my knees to my chin resting my head in them as I sobbed into my hands. How could I have been so stupid, I had let myself fall for her. Yet here I am heartbroken yet again, because I fall for all the wrong people. Shes married, married to my ex the ex that cheated on me and now cheated on her. Shes just as bad as he is, I thought she loved me I sure as hell loved her.
I felt like my heart had been ripped out and stamped all over then shattered into tiny pieces smashed like glass. I resigned myself to being alone from now on, I don't know how many more times I can be treated like this. The tears ran steadily down my cheeks and I made no effort to try and stem them, my phone rang in my pocket as I looked at the name through blurred vision. Amelie, I didn't want to see her right now I didn't want to see anyone I just wanted to crawl into a hole somewhere. I declined the call as it trilled alost instantaneously, Aisha.
I let it go to voicemail as it beeped with a new message, I unlocked it and dialled the number. "Im sorry adam I meant to tell you but I didn't want you to find out like this. Ive know that I didn't want tommy from the moment we first slept together please call me back im worried about you." She sounded as though she was crying, it trilled again Amelie again. I silenced it and threw it across the room as it hit the stairs with a thunk.
I sat on the cold floor for god knows how long, by now my butt was numb like my feelings. I sat just staring at the wall, my chest hurt a dull ache that had nothing to do with crying. My head was pounding and my nose stuffy, yet I didn't move from the same spot. Someone knocked loudly on the door making me jump but I stayed frozen to the spot not wanting to move.
"Adam you better open this damn door right now or i'll kick it in" came the voice of Amelie from the other side. I ignored it as she grew more and more impatient, her knocking grew more forceful as I closed my eyes trying to block out the sound. She wouldn't give up "seriously i'll stay here all night if I have to" she said. I swallowed and pushed myself up from the floor, I opened the door as she pushed it open and stormed in.
I closed it resting my forehead on the cool wood, "whats the deal?" she asked. "I was busy" I muttered closing my eyes again. "Too busy to answer your phone?" she snapped, "sorry" I replied I didn't need a lecture right now. I heard her footsteps a bit away as she sighed, "no wonder your phone screen is cracked did you throw it?" she asked. "So what if I did I don't need a lecture!" I snapped angrily as she put her hands on her hips and raised her eyebrows.
"Whats up with your voice?" she questioned, "nothing im getting a cold" I replied as I crossed the room and collapsed onto the sofa. "Bullshit lambert youre never sick" she retorted sitting next to me as I avoided her scrutinising gaze. "Look at me" she pled quietly, I turned to face her as her eyes ran over my face. "You've been crying, you never cry. What happened?" she asked quietly running her thumb over my cheek. I leant into her touch swallowing past the lump in my throat as I bit my lip gently and looked away.
"Adam talk to me" she whispered placing her hand on my knee. I felt tears stinging my eyes "everything sucks" I said my voice cracking. "Tell me what happened adam please" she urged, I fell into sobs again as she blinked and wrapped her arms around me. "Its ok let it all out" she whispered her hand rubbing circles on my back, "shes married Amelie" I sobbed. "Who is?" she questioned, "Aisha. Shes married to Tommy, I feel so stupid" I wept. "Oh adam, im sorry I know you loved her" she told me.
"Im an idiot, it hurts Amelie. It hurts so much" I said, "I know honey I know it hurts shush now" she replied stroking my hair. Slowly the tears stopped as I sniffed and hiccupped, "im going to get you a drink" Amelie told me disappearing into the kitchen. She returned with a glass of water and two asprin, "here take those" she replied handing them to me. "What for?" I asked hoarsely, "adam I know you remember I bet your head is sore" she responded. I swallowed them and placed my fingertips on the bridge of my nose, Amelie smiled and draped her arms over my shoulders her hands linked on my chest.
"I thought she was a bit dodgy you know, what kinda person doesn't stay with someone when they are supposedly with them" she mused. "I don't know really I don't" I murmured, "im going to go buy ice cream we'll watch films and eat ben and jerrys that will make you feel better" she went on as she stood and shrugged on her coat. "Ok" I replied rubbing my chest, she ruffled my hair and disappeared out the front door. I curled up on the sofa my head falling against the pillows as I shivered pulling the blanket from the back over me. My arm slid from underneath me as my eyes grew heavy, I closed my eyes and fell asleep.
