Loyalty

WHAT IS DONE IN THE DARK WILL COME TO LIGHT

DAHNI'S POV

"You get your fast ass outta here! I ain't raising no damn babies."

"But ma Devon did this ma! Every time you leave ...he never stopped...You remember?"

"I said I ain't raising no fucking babies! Now get the fuck out my face dahni. You kids make me sick, always busy doing something! "

"If you wasn't so busy tricking every night you would know what your nasty ass son is up to!"

I yelled as I stormed to my bedroom. I took all of my clothes out of the dresser drawers and tossed them on my bed. As I'm trying to decide what to pack something hit me, hard.

I have no where to go. What am I gonna do?

As soon as I made it into the hallway my mother punched me in the face. I lost my balance and fell hard on my side against the hardwood floors. She continued to beat me. I hugged my stomach tightly fearing for baby girl's life. Sometimes, I don't even want her and here I am protecting her. I don't know what's happening or is going to happen. Interrupting my thoughts, my mother kicked me in my back and head while calling me a hoe. She finally stopped beating me and stumbled her way into the living room. I used the wall for support to get up off the floor. I felt so dazed and my face felt numb. I may have to go to the hospital I fell really hard.
I ran to the bathroom to grab my essentials and hair stuff. I tossed them in my duffle bag and headed out. My mother was too high to even realize I was leaving. She was slumped on the living living room floor, she's so far gone. My mother, is what is called a binge addict. She'll stay clean for weeks or sometimes months and then she'll just relapse.

"You're pit...pitiful."

"Well look where I get it from. Do us all a favor and overdose already, worthless bitch!"

I rolled my eyes and stormed out of the apartment. I can't worry about her bullshit anymore. It's all about me and mines now. I really didn't want to keep the baby. I was already 5 months along when I found out I was pregnant. Its too late for an abortion. I can barely take care of myself so I know keeping this baby would be out of the question. I thought about giving the baby up for adoption. But, a part of me doesn't want to go through with it. My baby girl didn't ask for any of this nor did I. The idea of having my brother's baby disgusts me. I don't know what I'm going to do but I can't worry about that right now. I have to head over to Ava.
I'm spending the night with her at Miss Pearl's place. Tomorrow is our court date and I have to testify against Devon. I've never been so nervous in my life but I am so ready to get this over with.

On my way to the bus stop I see my ex-boyfriend, Angel. Til this day Angel thinks I'm a "hoe." I got pregnant while we were still dating so he believes I cheated on him. He doesn't even know what happened. I haven't had the heart to tell him either. I miss him so much but he hates me now. I was afraid of being judged.

"Hey...Angel."

"Why are you talking to me? I have nothing to say to ya nasty ass."

"Nasty?!"

"Yup! You're mad nasty Dee get outta my face please."

"He fucking raped me! I am NOT nasty."

I yanked my bag and stormed off in tears. I had walked two blocks way too fast. I had to slow down and catch my breathe. This heavy bag was weighing me down and so was my belly. Baby girl was going crazy inside of me. I felt her little hand above my naval and caressed the area with my right hand. In that exact moment I didn't care about anything but her. I can't give up on her. I can't and I won't be anything like my mother.

This is gonna be so hard to do alone but we're gonna be alright.

I felt a hand on my shoulder and spun around to see who it was, Angel. His hazel eyes were watery and his face looked flushed. I couldn't tell if he was upset or concerned because he was silent for a while.

"Angel say something you're scaring me."

"Yo you serious Dee? Why didn't you tell me?!"

I instantly grew hysterical. This hormonal stuff is the worst. Before I got pregnant I was numb to the situation. I hate crying I wish I could stop but I couldn't control it. Angel took me in his arms and caressed my back while repeatedly kissing my forehead. I've missed this so much. It felt good to finally be in his arms again.

"You should've told me babe I'm so sorry. I feel so stupid..."

"It's not your fault. I should've told you a long time ago. I just didn't know how I was afraid of being judged by you...and other people. I didn't think you would even believe me."

"You know who it was?"

I put my head down and stood quiet. Unfortunately, Angel and my brother are friends. Devon never knew we were dating because they're the same age and he would've flipped since I'm only 16. Only God knows what would happen if I tell Angel it was my brother that raped me. But, I know he'll find out eventually. My grandmother always told me "What is done in the dark will come to light." She was always right about everything....