The phone call that changed my life

Chapter 48

(crystals pov)

i woke up with my head throbbing and my stomach growling, it all didnt matter since i was intwined with louis. i breathed in his amazing scent, i giggled at me sniffing him. his beautiful ocean blue eyes showed as his eyes fluttered open

"morning beautiful" he said with his amazingly attractive morning voice.

"morning"

"im gonna go shower babe ill be right back!" he said jumping up and heading to the shower.

take me with you!!! i meantally thought but i just asswered with an okay.

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"im going to sleep!!" i shouted as paul rachel and the boys exited the bus for their concert. Rachel had wanted to go wacth this time so she is going to watch with Paul..

im actuall not gonna sleep.. that was a lie. i was going to write.

Dear diary,

today i feel actually okay. and i mean it.. im not lying. every day/ night i read crap that people say about me, i know i shouldnt but i just wanted to see!

Rachels baby bump is showing now! and Louis is just as adorable as he was when i met him(:

i havent cut in a week and a half !! new record? i think yes.

im going to just write a summary of how louis makes me feel and what i like about him.

  Louis is seriously perfect,

the way he looks at me with those damn blue eyes makes me feel so special.

and the way he holds me makes me feel safe. i really have never been so happy by one person besides how happy my Mom made me.

when louis and i kiss.. its like a huge volcano explodes. its unbeliveable. 

everytime louis and i are across the room from eachother or the tabke when were eating, i always cath him staring at me. its just so cute.. and then he blushes from me.

i seriously love louis.. i just feel like im not good enought though. You know what i mean??

he deserves better... but for now i guess ill make him happy by staying since he makes me so happy.. I really think that him and the boys, and well obviously rachel are the only ones who can make me truly happy!

anyways, i have to go. but ill write soon.

~crystal

i closed my diary/ journal thing and smiled at myself.

i grabbed my earbuds connected to my phone and put them in my ears and put on my playlist 'sad playlist'

the first song that came on was hello by evanescence.

that song made me cry the first time i heard it..

"and im not brokeeeennnnn" i sang along with some of the parts. this song literally explains my life.

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the boys had come back and were now playing fifa because louis somehow persuaded us too.

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HEY GUYS! sorry this isnt the best chapter. Next chapter there will be some drama!! ;D ill update soon.

.xx