The phone call that changed my life

Chapter 67

(Crystals pov)

I just want to disappear, you know what I mean..

I am completely broken..

Dead.

But still breathing.

Everyone left today so I decided to just chill out here. They left like 5 minutes ago and come back in 5 hours.

The alone time!

I opened twitter knowing ill be in tears, but no ones here to stop me, maybe ill just end the pain.

'Sluttt'

'Fake'

'Bimbo'

'Ugly'

I am all ready in tears..

I grabbed my phone and went to video.

I waited a few minutes to calm down an I wiped my face clean and started the video.

'Okay. Well Louis, I love you so much And your literally my everything. I can't believe that we met in a park.. By me running into you.. *giggle* whatever you do, NEVER blame your self for what I did. Or anything about me. None of this was your fault..*sniffle* don't think i did this because you don't want a family yet.. Cuz it's not. I've been strong to long.. I just cant do it anymore, I'm sorry. Ill be waiting for you, I promise I will be

There.'

I wiped my face clean again and started another.

'Hey Harry. I- I know that your my best friend and I told to everything, but I didn't. I didn't tell you I can't be strong anymore, and I hope you know your my best friend, and I'm glad your healthy again. I wanted you to know I love you so much. I remember when I first met you, I knew we would be amazing friends. Guess I was right *sniffle* ill miss you haz *sniffle*

I took a deep breath and started again.

'Oh Rachel, your my sister, I love you to death! Maybe I shouldn't say that it anyway, I knew up were always there for me and you would listen, but you have a family to take care of , that's enough pressure. Don't blame yourself because you aren't here right now. Don't forget I love you. And I'll see you again one day * big sigh and sniffle*'

'Oh Niall, your my eating buddy when I ate,

Remember when we had a movie marathon and ate hella food? Yeah, good times. I wish you would know how amazing you are because your truly amazing.. I love you!'

'Zayn, o zayn, the times we had. The times you saved me *tears trickle down cheek*

I loved the nickname to gave me, 'crystalclear' *smile*

Don't forget your zayn, and vain, Haha okay, bye.. See you.. Later.'

'Liam, daddy, I'm gonna miss

Your cooking, I'm sorry I'm leaving but, I dont belong here anymore, your fans made it pretty clear. Ill miss you. Bye.'

'Perrie, Danielle, ill miss the shopping sprees and late Starbucks trips. You guys can wear my clothes *few sniffles* and my make up. You can have my stuff. Ily guys.'

'Tommy and aunt faith, I'm so sorry. You know I wasn't really okay.. Don't forget to tell everyone I love them so much! You dot know how hard this is.. *sniffle* bye.'

'I sorry you guys have to witness this, and I'm sorry I just can't do it anymore. The hate, the pain, I can't handle it. Ill be happy, ill be finally happy, don't cry because of me, you guys are so strong. Sorry you've been with me when I had the meltdowns and that. Ill miss you. And tell the babies about me when there older.. Just tell them I'm in a happy place with my mom. *smile* i-I will miss you all. And I love you all SOO much! Bye.. *last wave*'

I made 9 videos and wrote my password on a sticky note and put it on my phone case. 'Tommo the pigeon'

I opened twitter one last time, 'for all you guys that wanted to me to kill myself.. Your wish just came true.'

I shut off my phone and grabbed the 2 things of pills.

I swallowed a few a kept swallowing. Things began to blur and I let the darkness take me over.

*

(Zayns pov)

"Guys!! Something's wrong! We need to get home now!"

**

We got home and bursted through the door. "Crystal?!?!? Dam crystal where are you?!"

I ran upstairs and opened te bathroom door, I bursted into tears. She was lying there, lifeless. Everyone in tears we hugged her. We looked to the left and saw her phone with a sticky note. 'Tommo the pigeon'

We unlocked her phone and found the videos.