The phone call that changed my life

Chapter 44

(GUYS I HAVE WRITERS BLOCK SO SORRY IF ITS SHORT AND BORING.xx)

(Louis pov)

Seeing the love of my life on the floor.. Covered In blood.. Holding a blade.. While in tears. Is literally the most painful thing ever, almost my worst nightmare.

No scratch that...It is my worst nightmare.

To think she would do that. Scares me about what else she would do.. What if one time I'm not there and she does it again? What if one time she kills herself? What if she drowns herself! I can't let her do that!! She's the love of my life!!

I glance over to the couch. Shes asleep right now and I'm just sitting watching her..she looks so peaceful! And she so damn beautiful..

"Stop staring Louis" he groaned making me chuckle.

"Crystal green.."

"Yes Louis?"

"I'm gonna be an uncle!!" I shouted jumping up and down. It's amazing.. Even though it was an accident. I'm so happy.. Ugh.

"Yes and I'm gonna be an aunt. Now shut up tommo. I need sleep.."

Wow gotta love her attitude.

"Okay."

I went up stairs into our room and cleaned it up a bit. I was putting on new sheets when I felt something user the mattress.. I pulled it out. A diary? Haha crystal keeps a diary.

I opened it to the first page.

'May 24, 2012.' Dang.. 2 years ago. (Yes this is in 2014 btw)

I scanned my eyes over the paper.

'I don't want to be living! I get cal names every day, fat, whore, skank, ugly, monster.. What did I ever do to them to be treated like this..?'

I let a tear slip down my face.. I flipped through the next few pages.

One of the titles caught my eye.

'July 13 2014.'

That was a few days ago.

'Dear diary,

My life.. Well is okay actually.

I'm in love with the most amazing guy.. Louis Tomlinson! He's so perfect too.. His beautiful blue eyes, his amazing smile! And I can't forget his hair.. But we're on tour and my depression is getting worse.. It feels like I'm dying inside. I don't want to say anything because this is this moment to shine. I sang the Other day.. It was amazing. We are at home right now, and we leave to go to new Orleans. I cut a few times on my thigh where no one would find them. I'm proud of myself.. And I'm hurting so bad right now. The only one who can make me real smile and real laugh is Louis. I fake smile and laugh all the time.. Except when I'm with him. Well I gotta go 'eat'.. Bye diary.'

What did I just read..

"Did you read that Louis.." I turned to see crystal in tears standing at the door way.

"Crystal I'm sorry."

"No save it Lou." And she stormed off.

What the hell did I just do!?