Broken from the Dark

ch. 7

That night when I got home from the water park I started to think. And when I start to think, it's not ever about good thoughts. I started to think about how my mother hated me and crushed my heart into a million pieces by burning that picture. My last picture of him. I gripped the razor in my hand and fought the urge not to cut. Carter didn't want me to and I didn't either but it was kind of hard not to, thinking about my life.

My mind then wandered off to Carter and I realised that it was a happy thought. I finally got my happy thought that I had been craving for awhile now. Ever since he died. When he died I realised that it was my mother's fault and it was then that I wished I never met him. Then he would have still been alive. It was all my mum's fault. No scratch that! She didn't even deserve the shortened title mum. She deserved to be called by her real name. Amy. But I will call her mother. At least I still had respect in me unlike my mother who had no respect for anybody.

I tried to concentrate on just thoughts about Carter but my brain kept going to the dark side. I couldn't take it anymore and I let it out on my poor arm. I felt guilty because I knew I was going to make Carter upset when he found out but I didn't have it in me to even care. I gave my arm 6 new slices on my arm and welcomed the pain.

It stung as I washed the blood off my arm and bandaging it again. The thoughts and the pain that came with it exhausted me so by the time I was done, I felt like passing out so I put my music on and let sleep overtake me. It was late anyways. 

Carter's pov

After Candice drove off I got into my car and drove to my house. I was suppose to be going to Victoria's house but I didn't feel like hanging out with her. All she would try to do is get me in bed and I wasn't up for that. I was not giving it to a girl who wouldn't care. That happened to my sister and she died from it. I was not doing that. That's why every time a girl was getting fed up and thought I wasn't going to do it, I dumped their sorry ass. Sure I did do things with them yeah. I'm a guy, but I didn't do that. All the rumours about me getting laid are so full of crap. It's actually pretty funny.

Victoria texted me but I just ignored it and kept driving. I couldn't be bothered tonight. I didn't want to ruin my perfect day. It started out good and I got to spend my day with Candice and I was going to make sure it ended good. I parked my car in my spot and walked into the house hoping everybody was asleep. I didn't feel like answering my mum on why I was gone all day long. Luckily mum was asleep so I just walked in and headed straight towards my bedroom.

I opened the door and spotted my picture on the wall of my sister Kayla. I missed her so much and I hope she is happy now. I gave the picture a air kiss and took my clothes off except my boxers and went to bed. I had a plan for tomorrow and Candice was included. I couldn't wait to surprise her again.

Candice's pov

The sun was beating down through my window and I had to sqint as I got out of bed. What happened to the rain we were having? Right now I missed that. I looked at the clock and it was 7:00 in the morning. Screw the sun. I groaned and tumbled out of bed falling to the ground because I tripped over my iPod. What the hell. Why in the world was my iPod on the floor? And yes I tripped over it and fell. I'm also clumsy to add onto my laziness in the morning.

The doorbell rang right as I got downstairs. Shit. Jessie and Matt were still sleeping. More importantly though, who is at the door at 7:00 in the fucking morning! I let out a puffy breath before walking to the door and swinging it open. I'm cranky in the morning too.

What"? I groaned at Carter. "Why are you standing at my door this early in the morning"? He chuckled and let himself in. "Well good morning to you too miss cranky pants". I shut the door behind him and went into the kitchen to get a drink. "well usually people don't just show up with no plans at 7 in the morning". He raised an eyebrow at me. "Who said we had no plans"? I made a face at him. First he invites himself into my home and now he's making plans for us? "What plans"? I asked as I casually drank my chocolate milkshake. "I'm taking you roller skating". "Why"? He shrugged. I thought i'd be a nice person and get you out of the house".