Broken from the Dark

ch. 9

Candice's pov

"Carter" I choked out. His voice was icey and dead and it sort of reminded me of a vampire. Carter as a vampire. That would actually be pretty funny. Stupid Candice! Get back on track. He's going to kill you! "Where the hell did you go last night"? Oh so this was what all of this was about. He was mad that I went somewhere. Well I made him jealous. Right? I'm pretty sure...

"Why would you care Carter? You're not jealous, are you"? He looked taken aback like he definitely wasn't expecting that. His bit the side of his cheek "I am not jealous. Why would I be jealous of you"? Hmm..why would he? That's a good question. Why is he jealous of me? ME of all people. I still couldn't wrap my brain around that. "I don't know Carter. Why would you be jealous of me? Seems like that's a question only you can answer". 

He let out a frustrated sigh and squeezed my arm harder. "Candice, you're my friend. We've done so much together since I met you and you/re different okay? Can't you just accept that"? It took awhile to process that. That was the opposite of what I was expecting. What ever happened to the players being mysterious and hard to understand? He just told me what he felt like it was nothing. That wasn't suppose to happen. This was way too strange! 

"Carter are you alright"? Way to go Candice! Smart move. Yeah right. That was such a dumb question to ask. But the answer I got was the mysterious part of it all. "No Candice. I'm not alright. Thank you for fucking reminding me how fucking messed up I am. There. Do you feel happy now? You know the insides of the player. Was that your goal"? I was emotionless. It was like I forgot how to speak. If i thought that was shocking though, the think he did next was what totally blew me out of the window. 

He put my other arm in his tight grip and leaned down towards me slowly. It was like when Bryce went to kiss me but this time my heart accelerated 3,000 times faster and my throat did a whimper that I never knew I could make. My stomach was doing flips of excitement and fear at the same time. The last thing I wanted to be was easy to Carter. I couldn't be letting this happen. Right when he was about to kiss me. Like literally. He was like 2 millimetres away from my face, I pulled back. I have no idea why I did that. I had no idea why I stopped myself. But I did. I ran away from the corner and picked up my stuff to hurry off to the first lesson. I could just hope that Carter wasn't going to be there. I couldn't exactly hide from him. He was in like almost all of my lessons. 

I sat down in my seat and the bell rang and no Carter. I wasn't sure how I felt about that. I mean I knew I would be uncomfortable if he showed up but he didn't show up and I still felt depressed. What the hell has my life came to? Ever since Carter saved me my life has gone from bad to somewhat better. I wasn't so sure anymore if it was for the better or worse though. Lately I've been sad for whole new reasons that i've never experienced before.  

What happened that day was a crazy day that I was not prepared for. It was a day I will never forget. "Miss Rhyes you need to go down to the office". I looked up from my English assignment and up at the teacher. "What"? He cleared his throat clearly annoyed. "Go to the front office now". I nodded my head and gathered my things. I had no idea why. I didn't do anything. 

I walked into the office to see Carter's mum standing there with dried tears down her face. What the heck was going on? I walked fast but cautiously towards her afraid to break her or something. She looked so frail and sad. "What's going on"? My voice felt so small and scared. What was going on here? Was Carter hurt? If so, why was I being called to the office. I wasn't dating him or in any close contact with his parents. I was just a friend from school as far as they know. 

"We have to go see Carter. He's in the hospital and I went through his phone and your in there as Can Can <3". This was interesting. Carter put a heart after my name? Hmm.. Maybe he did like me. This was so weird. i just nodded my head and followed Carter's mum to the car. 

No words were spoken throughout the car ride and it was a very awkward car ride. Perhaps one of the most awkward one i've ever been in. That was saying a lot since i've been in some pretty awkward conversations. What could be more awkward then being in a car with a boys mum without him when she knows your in his phone as Can Can<3. That was just plain weird. He wasn't even in my phone as that. He was just plain Carter. Plain Carter that got my heart pounding faster than a racecar when he got close to me or was sweet  to me. Yeah that plain Carter. 

We arrived at the hospital about 20 minutes later and I never have been so glad to be out of a car in my life. "What happened to Carter"? I was almost afraid to ask. What if he was dead? I've known him for almost two months now. He really has had a impact on my life. I mean sure it's not like he's my boyfriend but he could be.. No. I need to stop thinking like that. Carter Logan would never date me. 

"He got in a bad motorbike accident. He's in intensive care right now. He may not be able to survive". A tear rolled down her cheek when she said that and I could tell she was trying to stay tough. I knew she wasn't that kind of woman to cry in front of people. But right now I couldn't care less if she looked weak or not. Her son could die! I wanted to hug her so bad but wouldn't that be kind of weird? I mean the last time I saw her she was telling Carter to keep me around..Yeah it was kind of weird. 

We walked into the hospital and got into the lift. I thought the car ride was awkward well I'll tell you what's really awkward. When we were in the lift we both went to press the button at once and our fingers touched. I quickly darted my hand away and let her press it while mumbling a quiet 'sorry'. 

The doors open and I felt like I was going to die. Being in a lift with that girl really was exhausting for some reason. It was hard to explain even to myself. We walked down the long hallway that seemed to go on for miles and miles. The farther we walked the more sick I began to feel. What was he going to look like? Was he going to be unconscious? 

Evidently my face looked red like I was about to pass out because Carter's mum, Mrs. Logan stopped and held onto my arm. I felt so dizzy and sick like I was going to pass out any second. "Are you okay Candice"? I nodded my head the best I could to tell her no. She stopped me from walking and gestured me to sit down on the floor. I took the offer but it wasn't like I had a choice. I practically fell down on the floor. 

"We need a nurse here"! Mrs. Logan screamed to get their attention but I couldn't think. I was about to pass out. I could feel it. My brain started to go fuzzy and black spots filled my vision. And then everything went black. I passed out on the floor for who knows how long. 

I woke up with nurses and doctors surrounding me while I lay on the floor in the hallway. What happened? "Am I dreaming"? I asked, my voice coming out rusty. The doctor leaning over me had a serious face. "No you are not dreaming. You passed out. You've been out for two minutes honey". Really? That's all I've been out? It felt like i've been out for hours. Or even days. Usually the first thing that people ask when they wake up on the floor is where there parents are. Well I hate my parents. One of them is dead and one is a messed up freak who deserves to die. But what I did ask wasn't exactly what I thought I would ask. It just came out of my mouth before I could even process it. "Where is Carter"?

The doctors gave me a worried look and I could tell they were about to sugar coat the truth but I didn't want that. I just wanted to know where my boy- where my friend was. I couldn't keep doing this. If I fall for Carter anymore then this is going to turn out bad. The girl doctor that seemed kind of nice had a sad look in her eyes. "Carter is doing fine. He is in his bed in a coma. You can see him but after we see what is wrong with you honey". I shook my head furiously. 

"No. I want to see him now. He's my boyfriend"! That part just slipped my mind and I didn't mean to say it but it was too late now. And it didn't even feel like a mistake. I just went with it. "I want to see my boyfriend. Please". The nurses looked at each other doing there silent talking I guessed before they decided I could see him if they put my in  a wheelchair. I just went with it. For all I know there could be something seriously wrong with me and I could die soon but they were still letting me see him first before they check on me. That was all I ask for. 

They wheeled me into his room so I could see him and I was prepared what to see. It was so heartbreaking though. He was connected to wires and there was a blood metre on him. He was in a coma and they had no idea how long it was going to last. It could last days. It could last years. That's when I knew how much I had fallen for him. And the worst part about it was that I didn't have any control over it. I didn't want it to happen. I was being a bad girl. But I couldn't stop it. It was growing every day more and more. I just couldn't wait for Carter to wake up though. It broke my heart to see him like this.