Rewind || Park Jimin

Prologue

Death is not a restriction it's more like a relief. The relief from this harsh world that we try to make a nice place to live in for our self and family members and everyone else who's important to us. The feeling of ease after all that pain and suffering, doesn't matter if it's financial, physical or mental, that's death. Even though you can not know your time of death, you always know that you can die anytime. It could be a sudden or a long-awaited end of your life. Death doesn't know age, it doesn't care about your dreams or goals, all it knows is how to take your vitality.
If I had known that in the beginning I would have done several things differently.
The things that happen in the past can not be changed, everyone knows that. But have you ever behaved in a way that you haven't had regrets afterwards? The things you said or did to people might hurt them and you always think about it afterwards, when it's already to late, gone by or elapsed in time. I told him to leave me alone, and that's what he did at the end. He just wanted to do good but I didn't saw it like that back then, I thought I knew better than him. I was stupid, I still am. He did everything to help me, even though I refused. He helped me without me noticing it. I regret most of my behavior towards him and I can't do anything now, it's too late. There is no way to apologize or repay him.
The present is a gift, the gift to live another day. It's being, existing, or occurring at this time or now. Being here, existing or occurring in a place, thing, combination, or the like. Being with one or others or in the specified or understood place. I still get this present but he doesn't, his time was over. I have the opportunities to do everything I dreamed of but I have no more dreams. My dream died with him and my passion disappeared like his presence. He was always here for me, only cared about my well-being, not thinking about himself any second. All I had to do was sit next to him, listen to him and acknowledge him in any kind of way but I didn't.