Rewind || Park Jimin

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I wanted to spend time with him as much as possible. But on the other hand I didn't want history to repeat itself. It was a battle between what I knew and what I felt. At the end my brain outsmarted my heart and I made my choice. I will ignore him for his own sake, no matter how much I miss him. He is better of without me than dead because of me.

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Even though I tried my best at ignoring him it was hard for me to stop staring. Everytime I don't look at him, I hear his voice or his bright laughter which make it even more difficult to not look at him. And when I saw Jimin's adorable eyesmile and fluffy hair, even if it was just from a far, I couldn't stop grinning. "Yeri! Are you there?" It took Eunji a few taps on my shoulder to wake me up from my daydream. "Are you crushing on Jimin?" Eunji was one of my only friends, she might understand me if I tell her what happened to me or she might declare me as crazy, either way it was worth the risk. "We were good friends, maybe even more than firends." I looked Eunji deep into her eyes to tell how she reacts. "You have never talked to him, like ever. Jimin and his friends don't even know our names." I sighed, it was true what she said. I should have talked with Jimin for the first time yesterday, it was because of the englisch class we had together. But this time I ran out of that class, avoiding the group task.
Eunji grabbed her bag and stood up, "I have to go to class now. See you later in biology and please get some air. I think you don't have enough oxygen in there right now." She waved at me for a short time and then turned around, walking towards the theater. I had another two free hours to kill due the illness of my philosophy teacher. Sitting alone on the lawn was depressing, I let my self fall down. Watching the clouds make their rounds and even interpreting their form. For example that one over there looked like a turtle. The sun was to bright, I closed my eyes and concentrate on my breathing. I felt tiered, it was arduous for me to try and keep awake. With every breath I was one step closer to falling asleep. Then it hit me, it literally hit me. I sat up to see a soccer ball rolling beside me. "Sorry about that. Oh, I think I know you. The girl from yesterday right? I'm Jimin by the way, but I didn't catch your name." He was smiling at me waiting for me to answer but I didn't even return a smile, just layed down and closed my eyes again. I could still feel his presence, it was like he thought I would answer him sometime, that he just had to wait a little more. I had no intention to and eventually I fell asleep. With the sun shining down on me, keeping me warm like a cold blooded animal.

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"How long has she been sleeping now?"

"About two hours I think..."

"Have you been here the whole time?"

"Yes. Is there a problem with that?"

"No, not at all. I mean you don't even know her name..."

"Well do you know her name, Jungkook?"

"No, but I didn't bring here to the infirmary after she fell asleep on the lawn and I'm also not the one waiting for her to wake up."

"Should I have let her lay there? It's not safe for a girl to sleep everywhere."

"I'm awake now, you can leave." I opend my eyes, pushing myself up from the bed. Jimin and Jungkook stared at me until Jungkook finally spoke up, "Are you alright? You look kind of pale. Did you have lunch? Do you want anything to drink?" Jungkook bombarded me with thousands of questions. "What's your name?" Jimin asked me, totally ignoring Jungkook. "Yeri." I said and took my stuff, leaving the infirmary. I still had classes to attend and people to ignore.