Rewind || Park Jimin

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It was silent. All you could hear was the engine working. No one of us felt like talking or lifting the mood. I grabbed steering wheel harder and concentrated on the road. I let out a small sigh. Taehyung started sobbing on the back seat. My chest got havier, it was getting hard for me to breath. I pressed my lips together trying hard not to cry. Ever since I got the call from Namjoon, I have that void inside of me which keeps pulling me into the darkness. The truth is like poetry. Most people don't like poetry. I didn't want to belive what was given me as truth. I tried to deny it but even if I didn't believe it, it still was the truth. I wasn't the most effected by it, no, not at all. I only knew him for a month. "It's all because of you," Taehyung screamed, "because of you I lost a friend, a brother!" Yoongi tried to calm Taehyung down again by rubbing his back, however he also started crying right afterwards. "You are the reason he died! I wish we'd never had meet! I wish Jimin never had talked to you that day!" Jungkook started screaming too but not at me, he was screaming at Taehyung. "Stop it already! There is no use of that now. It's to late." It was my first time seeing Jungkook angry and it didn't feel right. "Yeah, because she killed him." Taehyung whispered but I could hear every word, "It's all because of her." I couldn't hold it anymore, tears started falling down my cheek, blurring my view. My hands were trembling, I slapped myself and wiped my tears away. In that moment Taehyung kicked my seat and I lost the control over the car. Everything turned pitch black.

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I woke up in the classroom, the last thing I remembered was driving to his funeral. But here I was in the classroom hearing a familiar lecture in english class. We had that topic a month ago but everyone seemed so clueless. My eyes were burning, I was too tired to listen to something I already knew and wasn't interested in. Because of boredom I looked around the classroom, daydreaming to get to another place, to my utopia. An utopia where everything is fine and no one is harmed. While drifting away my eyes catched a face I thought I wouldn't be able to ever see again, I couldn't stop starring at him. Jimin was sitting two rows in front of me doing the exercise our teacher gave us a few seconds ago. "W- What date is it today?" I asked my classmate Eunji who was sitting next to me. She just showed me here calendar and it was exactly one month before Jimin's accident. My eyes went right back to Jimin, he was laughing at some joke Hoseok made. A smiles appeared on my face, at the same time I stared tearing up. "Yeri? Are you okay?" Eunji gave me some tissue, I just nodded. Jimin heard my sobs and turned around, he gave me his heart melting smile which made me cry even harder, even if it was to comfort me his attention made it worse for me. I stood up and ran out of class, our teacher screamed something after me but I could understand a thing. Everything was blurry, all I could hear were my own sobs and breathing. It was hard for me to stand, I fell on the ground a few floors away from the boy who's death I was responsible for. The boy I killed.
"Are you okay?" I looked up to see exactly that boy who was supposed to be dead, Jimin reached out his hand waiting for me to take his help and get up. I didn't. Not this time. I got up myself and excused my behaviour, walking to the next bathroom with an cold expression. I washed my face a few times and after I was sure that I was the only one in the bathroom I curled up in the corner, not wanting to believe the truth that was given me.