I love you (Dan Howell X Reader)

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When I woke up I had arms wrapped around me and words being spoke to me.
"I wish you knew how beautiful you really are. (Y/n), I think you're very, very beautiful. I can't say this to you while you're awake because, I'm awkward as fuck and it would be such a mess. I really wish I could tell you that I like you, but again I'm awkward as fuck."

I'm guessing I wasn't supposed to hear that, so I just kept pretending I was asleep. I felt my face become hot, I'm blushing. I shuffled a little trying to hide my blush, so I buried my face in his chest. Before I knew it, I was asleep again.

When I woke up, Dan was still holding me in his arms, but the difference was, it wasn't as tight. I heard a little snore come from him, I looked up and saw a sleeping Dan. His hair was all messy, his mouth was slightly open, a small smile on his face showing his dimples a bit. He was so cute!
"I wish he would stop being so damn cute...!" I said aloud, but not loud enough for anyone to hear.

Soon enough there was a knock on the door and a male voice saying,
"Dan, wake up, there's pancakes ready! Daniel, Wake up!!"

After that last part Dan had finally woke up with a jump and a sleepy raised voice,
"I'm up..! What's going on?"

Phil, I'm assuming, giggled.
"Pancakes are made, Melody made them."

Dan sighed and looked at me realizing he still had his arms around me and started blushing.
"S- Sorry!" He said removing his arms and getting out of bed.
"It's fine, really."

I got up as well and walked out of his room to go get changed into the spare. When I walked in there was already an outfit picked out. I know it wasn't Melody's I saw her clothes last night on the night stand next to the bed. I took my chance and changed into them.

I walked out of the room and down the hall into the kitchen where everyone sat. Phil next to Melody, and Dan next to no one, so I decided I'd sit next to Dan. There was a lot of small talk at the table, it was kind of awkward. 

Dan finished his food along with Phil, Melody and I were still eating, so Dan and Phil went into the lounge to watch Sherlock.
"So, how was sleeping in Dans room?" Melody asked.
"I didn't mean to. I actually meant to leave after he fell asleep, but if I were to get up I'd have to put him right back to sleep, so there was no reason to get back up." I explained.
"I see. I think you were actually just confessing each other undying love!"

I shook my head rolling my eyes, I don't think it's love. Crush? maybe, but not love.
"That's not what happened at all, I don't even like him that way." Was all I said. I don't understand why I keep on lying to her like this, I should tell her, but I don't want her making a big deal out of it.
"Whatever you say. I see the way you look at him. You really like him, you just don't see it."

I smiled and stood up placing my dirty dish in the sink.

Melody and I walked into the lounge where Dan and Phil were, but they were not. I told Mel to go look in Phil's room while I go to Dans. I walked to Dans room and knocked.
"Dan, you in there?"
Instead of hearing him all happy, I heard a sniffle and a small sob.
"Dan? Dan, what's wrong? Can you let me in please?"

After I asked the last part the door opened and a saw Dan; Hair messier than this morning, red puffy eyes, and more. I sigh and walk in his room shutting his door behind me.
"Dan, what happened?" I asked sympathetically. I pulled him into a hug.

He didn't explain his problem.
Dan took in a deep staggered breath and lied down on his bed. (Existential Crisis mode activate) I, again, sat down next to him, but instead of rubbing his back, lied down with him and cuddled up next to him.
"Dan, I can't fix it if you don't tell me what's wrong."

Dan shook his head and just lied there crying. I feel so bad, but I don't know how to fix him. I sighed.
"Dan, can you-"

Before I could finish my sentence, there was a knock on the door and Melody said,

"(Y/n), it's Phil, he's not in his room, or anywhere in the apartment."