Between the Lines

Thoughts in time

*ANDYS POV*

I spent the whole day in my room, darkness over taking me. My eyes had already adjusted to the atmosphere. Rain drops hit the big window over looking the streets of London, it almost drowned out my thoughts. Although it felt as if nothing could over power the things I've been thinking about lately, they weren't the usual Niall, school thoughts.

They were deeper.

Ever since the breaking things off with Dylan, its like something was set off inside of me. It made me miss home, and my mother.

If I had never left my family in California this would've never happened, and if I stayed I would've never met the best thing that's ever happened to me.

I was torn.

I yearned deeply to go home and be with my family, my everything. I couldn't just leave Niall, he was now my everything, but I had this void. It couldn't be filled, their was just something too tragic in my life to fill it with just any kind of thoughts and feelings. It was much more than that, it was a part of me. A part of me was missing.

As I rolled over in bed, I held my knees up to my chest. Closing my eyes and pretending that just for a moment the water drowning the lives outside these walls was sunlight and warmth.

When I closed my eyes I was at home again, listening to my mother cook as I did my homework with my little brother.

The annoying birds that chirped at midnight every night in the hot summers, I missed those birds. I missed the weather where shorts were a necessity and rain was rare.

But is it wrong that when I opened them the place that I call home no longer felt as if it was.

Time, that's all I needed, was time. Time to get over the tragic events that caused my spontaneous move across the country, I needed to get away from all the pain and mourning. Now that the cries couldn't be heard across the waters, I didn't feel the need to be in London anymore. It's been many years since I left home, I left with nothing but a backpack and my dreams of being a director.

But now that all the time I needed was starting to end, the only thing keeping the hour glass from emptying, was Niall.

I hadn't planned on staying here forever eventually i would go home. I never would've thought that I would fall in love with the most perfect human being, my mother would say I'm crazy.

And I am, I'm insane. Insane for a charming, loving, selfless Irish boy named Niall James Horan.

But would I feel this way forever?

" El I'm going for a run!"

I called out from the hallway as I zipped up my black and white wind breaker over my hot pink sports bra, the rain was merely a trickle I didn't mind. I loved running in the cold, it was better than dry heaving while the 90 degree sun gave you awkward tan lines.

" Alright, don't be long I'm going to take you out tonight!" She was in her pink fluffy robe, holding a white mug that said " Caution: hot stuff"

" I won't be long, I'm just going to run to the farmers market and back." I shrugged finding my Tiffany blue nikes with pink cheetah laces. She choked on her tea as I said where I would run too.

" Andrea you're insane, that's a 5 mile run!" She set her mug down.

" I normally do it in 35 minutes, that's 7 minutes per mile." Her face relaxed until I said

" But if you realllllly want me back sooner, I bet I could do 28 which is 4 minutes per mile." I smiled excitedly as her face dropped.

" Just hearing you say that makes my heart stammer! She tapped her chest lightly.