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Awkwardness

I got to go out and eat after eating some sweets and messing around in the sweet shop, afterwards I went to the studio with Bobby to finish the song.
"It's never taken me this long to write a song" I say
"Maybe you're distracted" Bobby says
"You're distracting" I say
"I only talk to you when you talk to me" he says
"But you're really attractive and you're right next to me" I say, he blushed and we got back to work.
We did a lot of place switching while writing and mixing music. I reached for one of my flash drives and at the same time Bobby was reaching for something and our lips locked for a second, we quickly pulled away from each other looking at each other until we actually kissed. His lips were perfect in everyway and the kiss felt so blissful I thought I was day dreaming until I pulled away,
"Sorry" we said then awkwardly sat there for a while
"So" he says
"We kissed" I say
"Yeah" he says
"Yep" I say
Time Skip
It was awkward for a while until we kind of confessed to each other that we were crushing on each other,
"Well we finished the song, what do we do now" he asks
"Let's go get food" I say, we left the studio and went to get food.
"Are you full" Bobby asks as I clear my plate
"No, let's go get sweets" I say, I tried to get him to let me pay and he said I could pay next time we go to that restaurant.
We got tarts and chocolates and sat in my dorm watching doraemon,
"What are doing" Bonnie asked peeking from behind the couch
"Watching cartoons and eating sweets" I say
"Why do you have that look on your face" Candi asked from the floor
"That look of whimsical happiness is really shining" Bonnie says
"Like the best thing in the world is happening or has happened" Candi says
"Do you like like Bobby" Luna asks from beside Bonnie
"I think she likes Bobby" Candi says
"She likes Bobby" Rebecca asks
"Yeah I think this is a date" Bonnie says
"Are they dating already" Luna asks
"I don't think so but they're both very cheery so only one of the experts could tell" Candi says
"I don't think they're dating yet" Rebecca says
"Not yet but soon" Luna says
"Are you done" I ask them
"Yeah" they say and leave, we continued watching TV until we fell sleep.
I woke up to a camera shutter,
"What" I opened my eyes
"If the video is filmed late and my schedule gets messed up I'm posting this" Max says
"Okay" I say, I closed my eyes and went back to sleep leaning on Bobby.
I woke up to Bobby moving,
"Sorry for waking you up" he says blushing
"It's okay, what time is it" I ask
"7:43" he says, I went and showered then put on black skinny jeans, a white button up, a red hoodie, and red converse. Bobby had left, I ate breakfast then picked up my siblings that were visiting then met Max at the set.
"You're an hour early" he says
"What are we doing" I ask
"What ever you want" he says, we sat around for a moment then started filming
"Hello internet, this is Jazmyne Cipher better known as JC aka Golden Bunny and today my close friend Max will be in this video with me" I say, he shook his head but I pulled him from behind the camera anyway
"Hi" he says
"He's a photographer" I say, he had his hands covering his face
"Can I go back behind the camera" he asks
"No, he's 6'1, his prescription isn't that strong, he doesn't like suits and refuses to let me buy him anything besides his usual converse, plaid hoodie, t-shirt, and jeans attire, he doesn't like when people touch his hair but he let's me do it because we're close, we watch cartoons and eat sweets together, and he's really shy" I say, I moved his hands from his face and he stood there with his hands in his pockets
"Yeah" he says, Aryah and Amar started giggling and I shushed them
"Anyways, today we will be talking with kids" I say, Aryah and Amar came in front of the camera
"Hi inter webs, I'm Ryah" my little sister says
"I Mar" my little brother said
"Aryah is 3 and Amar is 1 and a half" I say
"Hi" Mar says
"Isn't Mark the only person they know about and know about them" Max asks
"Yes" I say
"You should call everyone to the set do they can meet your siblings" Max says
"Calling spree" I shout we turned the camera to the guest area with and set up sheets and set up the big screen to show pictures of everyone including Mar and Ryah, we started calling people and they eventually got here so we turned the camera back on and released the beasts.
"Ooh I like that one" Aryah said as she pointed to Jiho
"This one Mark" Amar went to Mark, I face palmed and set Aryah in Mar at the interview area along with Mark and Zico
"Hi I'm Ryah, can you be with Jazmyne" Aryah asked Jiho
"I regret teaching you Korean" I say
"I'm Zico, um I don't know" Jiho blushed
"That's okay, you're still cute" she said, I face palmed
"Thank you" Jiho blushed
"This one Mark, Mark funny" Amar said
"Thank you" Mark says
"You welcome Markipoo" Amar says
"Markipoo" I ask
"Mark and Winnie the Pooh, it on Markson show" Mar says, I face palmed
"Let's get on with the introductions before you two embarrass me anymore" I say
"Okay, I'm Ryah I Jazmyne like Zico, they're going to get married and have 5 puppies" Aryah says, I hit my head on the counter
"I Mar, Mark and Jazmyne getting married so Mark be my brother" Amar says, I repeatedly hit my head on the counter for about 5 minutes
"Next two people" I say, Mark and Jiho laughed and got up so Keisha and Bonnie could sit down
"You pretty" Amar says to Keisha
"Thank you" Keisha says
"Ooh, you're hair is so straight can you do mine" Aryah asks Bonnie
"Um, my hair is naturally like this" Bonnie says
"I want mine like yours" Ryah whines
"I can't" Bonnie says, Ryah started sniffling
"Why not" she asked about to cry
"I don't know how to do curly hair" Bonnie says with fear in her voice, Ryah started crying and I had to hold her
"One moment" I say, Max took my place I went off set to calm down my little sister while my friends talked to Amar and Boonsri came off set with us to make sure everything was recorded
"I want straight hair" she cried (my three year old sister actually cries over straight hair, she's mixed with curly hair)
"Why, you're curls are so pretty" I say
"I'm not pretty enough" she cried
"Yes you are, you're beautiful" I say
"No I'm not, I wanna be lighter and have straight hair" she cried
"You're really light" I say
"You only say that because you're the color of night" she said, she struck a nerve and I really wanted to cry (these things were actually said by my sassy little sister)
"You are light but you're mixed with Antiguan so you have a darker colored skin color" I say
"I don't want to be dark" she cried
"There's nothing wrong with being dark" I say
"Yes it is, it's ugly" she says, my eyes were swelling with tears
"It's how you were made and how others were made" I say
"It's ugly, I want to had be made light so I could be pretty" she says, I stood up and looked away so my hair covered my face
"Okay" I say as tears spilled from my eyes
Time Skip
We couldn't cut what Ryah said from the video because then the video would have glitches so we posted the video anyway. I sent Aryah and Amar back to Florida and stayed in my room crying,
"Jazmyne" there was a knock on my door but I continued crying, I heard my door open and felt someone sit on my bed
"Go away" I mumbled into my pillow
"She didn't mean it" Keisha says, I sat up
"Yes she did, she says it all the time when she's in Florida and when she visited me in North Carolina she would always try to be around light people and she's repeatedly said we could be twins if you weren't dark, and she's bashed me about being dark ever since she could talk and claims I'm her favorite sister when in reality she just wants to change me and my family members in NC just laughed so don't you even dare try and defend her because she meant every word" I say
"Well I wasn't offended and I'm dark skinned too" she says
"Ha the lies you tell, you're brown skinned like peanut butter brown or card board brown I'm like dark chocolate or tar" I say
"You aren't that dark" she says, I got my chocolate stash from my night stand and got a peice of dark chocolate
"I'm slightly darker than dark chocolate" I say
"Jazmyne you are beautiful, are you really going to let a three year old make you feel bad" she asks
"The fact that she's my little sister who always wants to be around me and the fact that I'm already seen as ugly because of my skin color and or race and the fact that darker people get bashed online and the fact that I'm in the media which means I could easily get bashed makes me up set her being 3 and pointing that out makes it horrible" I say
"Jazz she-
"Just get out and leave me alone" I say
"Jazmyne I-
"I said get out" I shout, she got up and left
"At least-
"Go away" I shout, I heard her walk away and I locked my door then went back to my bed and tried not to cry but failed miserably.
I woke to repetitive knocking on more door,
"I'm up, go away" I say, the knocking stopped and the person walked away from my door. I showered and put on black skinny jeans, an oversized white hoodie with a slice of pizza on it JB got me, and pizza socks. I brushed my hair not bothering to tame it besides putting it in a ponytail, I put on my white converse then went to film.
"Hey internet this is Jazmyne Cipher better known as JC aka Golden Bunny and today Max Akio Moa Boonsri and I will be trying different kinds of pizza" I said with no enthusiasm, Max came from behind the camera and hugged me
"We'll be eating 3 pizzas together then telling which is our favorite" he says, Akio Boonsri and Moa came in front of the camera and introduced themselves then we started eating pizza. I ate nibble by nibble but got to try each pizza, they would look at me with a pitiful smile every once in a while.
"Well that's all we have for today, Jazmyne will probably have people fill in for her the next few days while she recovers from some hurtful words" Max says and turns off the camera, Max edited the video then the 5 of us went to get sweets.