End?

Dead

I talked to my boss and the girls about how stressed I am and I told them I was getting a place by myself so I could be alone to think and they were okay with it and took it well.
My dad gave me some places to look at and I decided on a pent house type home with white walls, hard wood flooring, and a white stair case. Akio Moa and Boonsri helped me move my stuff in then they left while I set everything up. I had everything in the living room arranged so I could see the TV and kitchen from the couch. I kept my room the way it was when I lived with girls but added things to the walls for my jewelry and bunny ears. After I finished arranging things and getting groceries I worked on some music for Diverse. I sent them some lyrics and melodies, they took forever to respond so I would have to go over tomorrow to practice dancing with them.
After a long day of moving things and writing music for Diverse I ran some water in my tub and added bubbles. I stripped and put my hair in a bun then got in and sat in the tub. I started thinking about everything and started to feel depressed, I slowly sank under the water and let the water fill my lounges with out a second thought.
I appeared in a white void with my favorite things floating around me, a molang plushies, donuts, sweaters, and my laptop. I went to my laptop and opened it and Don't Forget by Crush played, I floated in place waiting to see if something would happen. The void started to crumble and shake rapidly until everything broke away and turned black.
I woke up and my lungs were cleared of water, I showered and put on a burgundy sweater, white button up, black skinny jeans, and black converse. I made myself breakfast then went to the sweet shop,
"Hey Jazmyne" Sang said as I came in and sat at the counter
"Hi" I say
"I ought to be mad at you for not coming for the past week but judging by the way your clothes fit I should be worried, what happened" she asks as she looks at my thin shaking figure
"I drowned myself and didn't eat" I mumble
"What" she asks
"I drowned myself and didn't eat" I say, she pulled me into a tight hug that Bree and Sang joined
"Didn't your friends visit or at least know" Bree asks
"Ever since I moved out no one really bothers to talk to me besides Max, Akio, Moa, and Boonsri" I sat
"What about Graham" Sang asked
"I haven't heard from him since he debuted with YG entertainment" I say
"I'm going to get him, I got him a nice girl and I've treated him like my son just for him to something like this" halmeoni seoltang was furious
"Maybe they texted you or called you and you didn't get anything" Bree says
"I already checked my notifications" I say
Time Skip
Halmeoni stuffed me with as much food as possible and made Akio, Moa, and Boonsri come get me so I could go to the gym. They made we drink tons of water and waste me do so much my body was completely sore and in pain,
"20 more laps" Boonsri said, I tried to push myself to keep running but my vision started to blur and I tumbled down and scraped my knee
"Are you okay" Moa ran to my side, he got the first aid kit and cleaned the cut then took me home.
"You can leave" I said as he put me down on my couch
"I'll leave when I know you're okay" he said then went to the kitchen and started cooking stuff
"What are you cooking" I ask
"A balanced meal for an unhealthy little girl" he said as he walked in the living room, he sat me up and fed me everything on the massive tray
"I'm full" I say
"Don't try that with me, eat the cookie, then drink the milk, smoothy, Apple juice, orange juice, and protein shake" he said, I ate the cookie and drank everything
"Thanks" I say
"No problem" he pulled me to him and pulled my hair then took off my sweater
"I like that sweater" I say
"It's too big for you and you could get heat stroke from it" he says
"I don't care" I say
"Well I care, I don't want you to die, and if you try to kill yourself again I will live with you or in vise versa and it will be that way until you get better now come on" he said, he helped me to my recording area
"What do I do" I ask as he sits me in front of my equipment
"Write something good" he says
"I can't with you pressuring me" I say, he sat next to me
"I'm not trying to be mean I just really care about you and you keep hurting yourself, I can't help you if you don't tell me because then I assume you're sad about something small and you'll get over it, I love you like my little sister and I couldn't imagine living without you" he says, I hugged him tight crying into his chest
"I'm a burden" I say
"No you aren't, you don't talk to the people that could help you so maybe to everyone else you're a burden but to your true friends and family you mean the world to us" he says
"I don't want to be an idol anymore, I just want to do my own thing" I say
"Then quit" he says
"The girls will be mad" I say
"Their anger doesn't effect your music career, let them fail because if I remember correctly they were usually the reason you wanted to die and wanted to be alone" he says, I gave a two weeks notice that I was leaving Diverse and as I suspected the girls were mad at me.
Time Skip
I wrote a bunch of music for my comeback the next week. Moa made me a big meal for breakfast lunch and dinner for 3 weeks straight and practically lived with me. I was doing better and I cut all the people that made me feel bad out of my life making sure not to burn any bridges.
"Jazmyne!" Max ran into my place and lifted me from the piano hugging me tight
"Hey Max" I say
"I'm so sorry, I had to go to Europe for a bunch of shoots and I couldn't fly back because the planes were held up and I can't believe you left Diverse, and when you have your comeback don't make sure you're the best you you can possibly be" Max said quickly hugging me tight
"Drink your water and take your vitamins" Moa said as my timer went off
"Was it really that bad this time" Max asks
"She drowned herself and didn't eat, she collapsed a bunch, and I have to feed her because she tries to say she's full when she just doesn't want to eat" Moa says
"Well Jazz is a simple eater, if it takes longer than an hour to make something she won't pay it any mind" Max says as I take my vitamins and drink my water
"I give her oat meal, sliced fruit, an omelet, milk, and apple juice for breakfast and as soon as she drank all of the milk she said she was full" Moa says, Max thumped my forehead
"Stop being stupid and let people help you" he said
"Okay" I say
"Jazz, smile" Moa said, I smiled at him and he took a picture
"What'd you guys do while I was gone exactly" Max asks looking at the folders full of music
"Eat, sleep, write, work out, I usually had photoshoots with Park and a few alone, I did a few collaborations with Zico, Crush, Grey, Loco, Simon D, Jay Park, Mino, and iKON, we go out every other day, Moa takes pictures of me while I work and he makes sure I eat, drink tons of water, and take vitamins, music videos, dance practice videos, videos on the V app, Golden Bunny has become popular in other countries ever since I started changing the language and posting on different channels for the language, and Simple and Sweet is getting a lot of free publicity" I say
"Diverse must've really been weighing you down" Max says
"Yeah, a lot of people were but I'm okay now" I say
"That's great" Max ruffled my hair
"You have to finish the video with Zico and a while so eat now" Moa said as he put a cup of tea, a donut, a glass of milk, and a sandwich on the counter for me.
I ate my food and he tossed grapes in my mouth while I answered trivia questions, I had a granola bar and a chocolate milk shake then we went walking around until we actually had to go shoot the video.
"Hey bunny" Jiho kissed my cheek
"Hey, are you ready to shoot" I ask
"Yeah" he says, we got in our places and continued where we left off from the other day.
We finished early and Moa let us go out this time,
"Are you not allowed to date me" Jiho asks as we go in a restaurant
"I am Moa just really wants me to focus on my come back and my health and wellness" I say
"Oh yeah I almost forgot, I got a new phone about a month ago and I don't have your number memorized" he says
"Oh, so that's why your manager calls me instead of you" I say, he gave me his phone and I put my number in
"Yeah and I kept forgetting to ask when I saw you and I didn't remember until you were gone and I wanted to check on you" he says, we ordered and it didn't take long for the food to come out.
He dropped me off to my house
"Wait" he said, he gave me small silk pouch
"What's this" I ask
"I said I would buy you a new charm every month but I never got along to giving them to you" he says
"Thanks" I hugged him tight, he pulled me into a kiss
"Don't hesitate to call me if you need anything" he kissed my hand
"Okay" I say blushing slightly
"I'll talk to you later" he said, I went in my place to see Moa Max Boonsri and Akio at the window laughing
"Oh my god you two are hilarious, you're so cheesy" Akio said while laughing
"Shut up" I hit his arm
"Can I just say that this relationship is going to end because of a misunderstanding because that's how all perfect relationships end" Boonsri said trying to hold back her laughter
"It's so cute til it's sickeningly but it's ridiculousness keeps me from gagging" Akio says
"Call him and tell him you need donuts" Max says
"That's what you're for" I say
"I do not buy you donuts when you ask for donuts" he says
"Oh yeah Max can you go get me some donuts" I ask
"Sure let me- shut up" he says, we laughed for a while longer then I got back to work while Max took pictures of me, Moa made me snacks and meals, Akio made me drink water and eat vitamins, and Boonsri made me take a break every hour to either play video games, work out, dance, or do karaoke to the song on are combined playlists. It's fun living with my friends, a lot more fun than living with people who weren't real friends.