Daughter of Swift + Bk 4 (Haylor&DustinFF) (Completed)

Chapter 11 ~ If That's What You Want

Darcy’s POV:

Justin and I sit on opposites side of my lounge room. I haven’t contacted Mum or Dad, and guilt is a blanket, a heavy thick curse. In the days before Justin I’d sip wine, and cry. Now that he is around I can do that, I feel guilty drinking, I feel like I shouldn’t need it but I do. When he does leave late at night, I do sip wine, but the effect isn’t the same, its like the guilt has soaked into me and the wine no longer stops it. I am extremely frustrated I can’t do what I need to when I need to do it. I enjoy Justin’s company, but it’s weighing on me, slowly dragging down. He’s an eagle eye in my home, watching ever move, breath, thinking over each word. For some reason I think Dad is behind this, he might be using Justin to help me, and Justin is doing cause of the guilt in the past. I don’t want none of that. I don’t need help, if this is how it comes, forced, heavy, thick. I glare at Justin, he looks back at me a look that is calm, relaxed, easy going.

“Don’t you have to be somewhere?” I ask already aware that he isn’t.

Justin holds my eyes to his “No” he says “why?”

I shrug my shoulders, I could answer rudely, ‘Why’ I could say ‘because I never get any space, you invade my space, you watch over me, you… shouldn’t always be here’

But I hold my tongue. I bit the words back.

“No reason” I say through gritted teeth.

Justin turns back to doing nothing, and I stare into space wondering when I can breathe easy again.

Taylor’s POV:

~ Wednesday

“I didn’t think you’ll show” Ed’s voice says as I open his studio door.

“I know” I nod walking up to him.

“How have you been getting on?” he asks causally.

“Fine” I say the lie isn’t of course true.

He nods “That’s good, Happy New Year” he wraps me in a hug.

“I’m sorry that I couldn’t get you over for the New Year’s party,” he says.

“Its fine, really Harry and I held our own,” I say as we step back.

“Oh really did Darcy show?” he asks eyes wide.

“She did, and she brought along a guy” I say.

“Oh wow, that is surely to sweet, to be true, but that’s just great, who is he?” Ed asks.

I bite my lip.

“Justin Thyme” I say.

“Your kidding, she is dating that… that guy from High School, your agreed to that?” he asks shocked.

“ED she isn’t a little girl anymore” I tell him, and realise my actions have been resembling a little girls actions, I bite back those thoughts.

“But Justin, off all the guys” ED tells me.

“I know seriously I do, but do we do something about it Ed? And if we do what?” I ask.

“Break them off,” he tells me.

“I know you think that he’ll break her like Bert, believe me it crossed my mind, but what would break her is if Harry and I broke up something that we didn’t understand” I say.

Ed nods “True” he gestures for me to sit.

Crossing my legs I turn to him “Harry spoke to me” I begin. Titling his head slightly I continue “Harry doesn’t like us meeting up”