NCIS: LA FANFICTION: Madison

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Maddie's POV:
I woke up and Aiden was gone. I saw him outside talking to Sam. He didn't look like he was in trouble. Kensi was in the room with me. "You know you can't just have a boy sleep in here." She smiled. "You and Uncle Deeks do it...also...it may be midnight...but I can still here you...grody." I scrunched my face. Kensi laughed. "I will keep it in mind." She said as Deeks walked in. "Morning Maddie." He kissed my head. Kensi gave him the 'Don't Bring Up The Boy' look. I got to finally go home. Aiden was my boyfriend. I slept through the night. I am glad I got stabbed. Kinda... I decided I needed to grow up a little more. I needed to set my priorities straight. I decided to keep a diary. For every dream (good or bad), every memory and every hope I could every have. My PTSD went away shortly after I got stabbed. It did take therapy twice a week, getting past Insomnia, and one more thing. I had to let her go. Uncle Deeks drove me to the graveyard. "Are you sure about this?" He asked. I nodded. I hopped out of the car and walked to her grave. It read:
Samantha Deeks
October 15, 1983- September 3, 2015
A beloved daughter, sister, friend and mother
I started crying. I put down pink roses, her favorite, and put down the note I wrote her that read:
Dear Mom,
I am so sorry. I now know what had happened to you. Why you did drugs. I don't blame you. I am sorry I reminded you what had happened. I am sorry I reminded you of him. I was sad and had PTSD for a while. I am okay now. I have a boyfriend named Aiden. I have Uncle Deeks. He is happy, he has a wonderful woman named, Kensi. We are a family. I will always miss you...but I need to let you go. I need to go on with my life. I know that's how you would have wanted it. I love you.
Love,
Madison
I wiped my tears. "I set you free." I sniffled. I kissed her grave and walked away. I got in the car. "You okay?" He asked. "Yah...I am...let's go." I smiled. That night I slept like a baby. No sleep walking...just calm, safe sleep. Dating Aiden was great. We had a normal relationship. Then, it ended. We both moved on. We both became NCIS agents. We found ourselves as partners and fell in love. We are happy. I would tell you about our future together...but that's for a different time. I realized all I had to do was let my mom go. I had to accept she was gone. I had to move on. My life was better. My mom will always be a part of me and I know I will always be a part of her. I am Madison Quinn and I am happy.