The Girl You Knew

16. Wake Up

189 days left till graduation. 189 days till my life begins.

Everybody has just left the hospital. My mum went home with Travis to wash up and be back later. It's currently 1am. I don't feel sleepy at all.
So I've been trying to work out what is going on with me and I haven't gotten very far.
One of my theories is that I'm a subconscious.
Yeah, that sounds daft.
I've also tried entering my room once everybody left but guess what I discovered? I can't open doors.
Maybe it was the universe telling me not to enter.
Maybe the sight of me right now is not something I should see?
I don't know what I'm saying.

As I continue staring at the door Sierra comes up to the door and I think she is going to enter my room. I grab this opportunity to enter. I slip in as the door is just about to close.
As soon as I enter the room, I realize that staying outside was definitely a better idea.
There's tubes running from everywhere to everywhere. I'm hooked up to I think about three different machines. I look dreadful. I must be in so much pain. Well looking at me now confirms that I do not want to wake up anytime soon.

"So, your name is Louisa Edwards. You had two very hot boys fighting over you earlier. The hotter one was definitely winning." I hear Sierra suddenly speak up.
Does she know I can hear her? or is she just doing this because she wants to talk to somebody?

"I can have the one who isn't your boyfriend right? I'm guessing the hotter one is your boyfriend. Obviously. I don't mind the other one. His name was Michael I think. Came in the ambulance with you." she continues.
Ok I don't know what she wants.

"Your report says that you're doing just fine. You're in a deep sleep kind of thing. I think now it's all up to you. You decide if you want to wake up or not. Personally I think you should. You'd be leaving your mum behind, your beautiful boyfriend behind and I think it would be selfish to leave you know?" She further continues, not really expecting any reply.
She does put up a good argument though. It would be selfish if I left everybody behind isn't?

She's about to say something else when Travis and Jordan burst through the doors.

"Uh-oh. I thought you said no one would be here at this time!" Jordan tells Travis who doesn't seem to be listening to him.
He's looking at me. The me, hooked up to the machines. The me that looks absolutely pathetic right now.

"You're the boyfriend from earlier right?" Sierra then asks Travis.
Travis just looks at her and blinks.

When he finds his voice he says "Umm, yeah, that would be me. Please don't kick me out. That there is the love of my life and I don't intend on leaving her side."
I would be crazy to not want to come back to him now, right?
Ugh. Why is this so hard?

"Listen, you can't stay here. If security or Nathan find you here, they will not hesitate to throw you out. Whatever chances you would've had to meet her again would go. So I suggest you spend only ten minutes with her now whilst I guard the door. You can visit again tomorrow. Capiche?" Sierra tells him.

Travis is about to argue with her I think but Jordan stops him.
"Just listen to the hot paramedic Trav. Would you rather be banned from visiting Lou?"
I catch a quick glance at Sierra who seems to be blushing because of the comment made by Jordan.
Jordon then looks at her and winks. I think she swoons.
I roll my eyes.

Travis grudgingly agrees and Jordan and Sierra leave the room.
It's just him and I now.

"Oh my god Lou." he starts off and pulls a chair next to my bedside and grabs my hand.

"I need you to come back Lou. Take your time. Not too much time. I'm losing my mind. I know you're there. You're a fighter. You always have been." Travis starts off.
"You must be wondering as to how I got in at this hour. Funny story that. Let's just say that Jordan and I may have pretended to be medical interns." he says smiling at his shenanigans.
" You'd be pleased to know that I have not killed Michael. Yet." he says chuckling.
"It's not completely his fault, I get that. Just remember  that I'll do everything in my power to protect you, alright Lou? With all my life. I love you. Just please come back to me soon love." Travis says, his voice cracking on that last line.
I've never seen him cry. Neither do I want to.
And to think it's my  fault.

Way to go Louisa.

"Travis, Nathan's on rounds, you've got to get out of here now." Sierra says suddenly opening the door and I'm glad for her intrusion.
Travis wipes his now red eyes and my heart breaks a bit.

"She'll be fine, trust me. I'll keep my eye on her." Sierra tries reassuring him.
I hope to God she's right.

Jordan then helps Travis out of the room and they leave.
I take this opportunity to step out of the room.
I have a very simple choice isn't? To stay. Or to leave.

~

It's mid-day when I decide to enter the dreadful room again after exploring the hospital and I find Anne, Natalie, Vincent, Samantha, Mary and Andrew in the room.

"Lou, this isn't funny anymore. You've had your fun. We've all laughed. Ha ha. Now please WAKE UP." I hear Anne say. She's quite frustrated. Anne, I feel you.

"Well until you wake up we shall  get you updated on all things." Natalie pipes in.

An hour has passed since they've been here. I couldn't have asked for better friends you know?

"Oh yeah I almost forgot, Lou guess who are part of the organizing committee for the Winter Ball that's coming up!!" Vincent says. He cannot hide his excitement.

"Oh yeah!! It's us! We're all in it. You too. You have some big responsibilities young lady, so I suggest you wake up soon." Mary adds.

Oh. My Gosh. The Winter Ball is coming up.

The Winter Ball is kind of like a prom thing that our school holds every year for the Year Thirteens. I've always wanted to attend one ever since I came to know what a Winter Ball is. It's a beautiful event that I cannot afford to miss.

I now realize that there's so much I have left to do.

I don't want to be remembered as the girl who died in a motorcycle accident. I want to go out there and find myself. Find something I love doing.

This just cannot be the last the world has seen of Louisa Edwards.

I've got to wake up.

Question is, how do I do that?