Music From my Heart

Chapter 5

Around midnight, I woke up from a nightmare and tried to stumble to my door.The halls and everything was dark. I managed to get to my door and looked down the halls. They seemed really creepy, dark and empty.Suddenly a light came from a down the hall, coming from the bathroom. Axel came out and shut off the light. He looked around and I know he noticed me. I went back against my wall as he began walking over tome. He put a hand on the wall next to my head and leaned against his arm. The look on his face was kind of startling me, since the moonlight made it seem creepier than what it really was.

"Why are you up so late?" he asked.

"A bad dream," I mumbled quietly and felt a bit nervous.

"You promised to come see me if that happened," he sighed lowering his arm next to his side.

"I was thinking about it," I said lowering my head.

"Don't think about it," he said quietly. "Just come with me now. I don't want you panicking again as bad as you were."

"I'm sorry," I mumbled and he grabbed my hand pulling me out of my room.

"Just come on," he said as he pulled me down the hall. "If mom asked us why we were in the same room, I'll explain." He glanced at me and smiled.

I nodded slightly and we stood in front of his door. He was the only one here who didn't decorate his door, so it stood out. It was bland compared to everyone else's. He opened the door and his room was completely decorated. Posters and pictures were hanging on the walls. Everything he had was all put away neatly. I was kind of shocked how neat it looked. He went to sit on his bed and turned on a small lamp. I shielded my eyes from the sudden light and shut the door. Rule here was that you had to sleep with the door shut. I looked at him when my eyes finally adjusted to the light. He patted a spot next to him on the bed.

"Come on Angel," he said soft smile on his face. I walked over next to him feeling awkward and nervously. He smiled a little and looked around the room like he was looking for something. Once he must have found what he was looking for he got up and went to get it. He handed me a small folded up paper. "Open it and read it," he said smiling and seemed kind of excited.

I like you. Do you want to be my girlfriend?

I stared at the paper a while. I felt my face get warmer and I knew then I was blushing, badly. He slightly chuckled next to me. It's really odd how this suddenly changed. Before we were teasing each other and now he was asking me out. Is something going on? This has to be a joke or a prank. I looked up at him about ready to just hand him it back.

"That'snot funny, Axel," I said feeling really upset.

"It'snot a joke," he said softly like I just hurt him.

"Well let me think about it, Okay?" I asked softly. My mind was running and I felt a flush of mixed emotions all at once. I hated this.

"Alright,"he said. I stood up ready to go back to my room but her grabbed my wrist and pulled me back down. "I told you, you can stay with me tonight."

"I think I'd feel more comfortable in my room," I said nervously.

I felt really awkward the way it was being with him in his room. I stood up and left. When I closed his door I slightly leaned against it and sighed relieved. It was kind of stressful and made me overwhelmed by emotions. I began walking down the hall to my room. My room was dark still and seemed like a trap with all my instruments lying around on the floor. I shut my door slowly and quietly then tried my best to make it back to my bed. I managed to without making too much noise. When I felt like I safely made it, I went and flopped down on my stomach. My mind was running with thoughts of that moment with Axel. He said he wasn't joking about the paper. Did he really like me in that way? Is that why he always teased me? Did something really change? How much would change if I did go out with him? My mind kept running with questions and thoughts about it. I couldn't focus on anything else.

"Mom,I could really use your help right now," I said with tears going down my face. I grabbed my pillow hugged it burying my face in it. My mind began playing back memories and I was searching for something she could have said that could help me.

In the morning I skipped breakfast and rushed outside to my shed. I forgot my hoodie and everything I normally brought with me. Last night I left my guitar in the shed so when I opened the door and turned on the lights I could see it. I wasn't sure what to play but I went to my drum set and began playing quickly. My mind was running faster than last night. I skipped my pills too. I still couldn't focus on anything but last night. It was too sudden of an approach for me.

If I turned him down it would make me look uninterested, which it'snot like I am. If I said yes than I would feel awkward and uncomfortable. What if we did start dating and my music career became a success? I would have to leave him a lot and fake stories that seemed to be trying to trash me would be making things difficult. I tried to clear my head with drums but it wasn't enough. I grabbed my bass and tried playing it. That didn't help either. I went to the piano and tried playing but even its soft tunes couldn't help my mind calm down. Last thing I could think of was my guitar. I looked at the case and slowly walked to it. A few tears went down my cheeks and landed on the case. I went to my knees and unlatched the locks and opened the case. The guitar shined a little with the lights on it.

"Happy Birthday, Princess. Love mommy and daddy." Was written at the bottom it. I saw some hearts and a crown over princess were also engraved in it. I sat it in my lap and began tuning it a little then began playing it. Finally this helped me clear my head. I closed my eyes to focus more on the music. As I played I kept thinking of the day I played it for the first time. My dad spent weeks making it. It was perfect. I was getting lost in the music I played from it. Axel first knocked asking if I was there then opened the door. He leaned against the door frame listening as I played. I slowly opened my eyes again after finishing the guitar part of one of my songs. I seen him standing there and just looked at him shocked.

"Hey,"he said lifting one hand in the air as a way to wave.

"How long were you there?" I asked.

"Guitars second chorus im guessing," he said smirking. "So did you think of an answer?"

"I am still trying to decide," I said looking away. Right when I got it off my mind he asks about it.

"Its just a yes or no question," he said standing over me looking down."Its not that hard."

"The question is like a life changing thing though," I said. "The answer could change more than you think."

"Would a first date help at all?" he said smiling. "Or at least a surprise?"

"What would that be?" I asked.

"Tickets to a concert you've been wanting to go to," he smiled.

"You've got tickets?" I asked feeling excited.

"I got ways," he said smirking.

"I don't know if I should trust that," I said squinting my eyes at him.

"Just trust me," he said holding his hand out to make a deal.

I took his hand and we shook on it. "Fine," I said finally. He smiled brightly. He must have been excited too. I was confused about what he was planning.