Fighting

The Hurt

 I thought he would be there for me no matter what. I thought he cared. I thought he actually might had LOVED me.  Was I wrong about it all? I thought I was careful.I locked my feelings up but they got out any way I had  fallen for him. It happens every  time. I let myself fall and I end up getting hurt. Each time my heart get broken. Every time they find someone better. Each time I get left Alone. I get left to pick up the pieces and glue them back together. I figured I'd be use to the pain by now. I guess I thought this time would be different. Was I wrong again. I thought he was Different. I thought he would be the one I could trust with everything. I thought he would be there one I could trust with my Heart. Where do I turn to find these answers. Where do I go to stop this hurt. I don't know why this hurt is so different. I've never felt this hurt before. This hurt is like being drained of every bit of emotion I  have. I feel almost numb. Its like I'm crushed and hurt so bad I'm numb from it. I don't know where to turn to now. I feel lost. Some one please help . Tell me what I'm suppose to do.I don't know what this new feeling is.I need to understand.