Trapped

five

it's been about three months since i started T. and so many things have changed. i have a deeper voice. i have more of a jawline. and my v lines are coming in, slowly. im finally happier.

my mum is getting suspicious. she keeps trying to trigger me to tell her everything. i have decided to go and pennyboard to alex's house. about ten minutes later i arrive outside his door and knock on it. moments later he answers the door in joggers and no top.

"what's up?" he says

"nothing, just wanted to chill." I reply

"rad. come on in" he gestures for me to enter. i walk in and we head up to his room.

"wanna play fifa?" alex asks

"sure"

he powers up the xbox and I take a seat on his bed.

a few hours later we are still playing fifa.

"fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck you alex!" i yell.
he won the game. i lay down with my head in his lap.

"hey" i say quietly.

"tired?" he asks

"yeah, can i just spend the night?" i ask

"yeah." he says while yawning.

"im gonna borrow some clothes." i say as getting up and heading to his closet.

"aight" he replies

i pull out black joggers and a my chemical romance muscle tee. i strip and put it on. i walk back over to wear alex is laying on the bed and i sit beside him.

"caleb, i need to tell you something." alex says

"yeah man, what's up?" i reply

"i love you." he says

"what?" i say sitting up and looking at him. "but.."

"don't talk." he says and kisses me. i kiss back and it's good, my lips trapped on his.