"Can we talk about what happened last night?" Jongin asked. Kyungsoo nodded his head before taking a sip of his orange juice.
"I just want to know how you're feeling and what you're thinking." Jongin said, keeping his eyes on Kyungsoo.
"Honestly, half of me feels great. I've always felt like something was missing from my life and now that I found it, I feel completed. The other half feels really guilty and afraid of what others are going to think. Mainly my family and Areum." Kyungsoo explained.
"The sooner you tell the truth, the better you'll feel. I know exactly how you feel because I've been there. It is really hard to come out to your family but once the words leave your mouth, you instantly feel relieved." He stated.
"I don't know. I feel like right now I need to keep it a secret." He said, rubbing the back of his neck.
"Take all the time you need. When you're ready, you'll feel it." Jongin rested his elbow on the table and his hand carried the weight of his head.
"So what does this mean for us?" Jongin questioned.
"That kiss really meant a lot to me because I have strong feelings for you. I really want to see where this goes but I don't know how I can do that if I want to keep my sexuality a secret." Kyungsoo looked down at his hands.
"I haven't told you this but I really like you too. It's kind of embarrassing but I purposely bumped into you both times that day we met. When I saw you, I knew I had to at least be friends with you." Jongin smiled.
"I'm glad you did such a dorky thing because without you, I would be lost." Kyungsoo moved closer to him. Jongin blushed and then Kyungsoo gave him a kiss.
"I really want to be with you. Just now I couldn't stop myself from kissing you. I want this to work out but I don't think I have the heart to break Areum's. She'd be so devastated." Kyungsoo frowned.
"She doesn't have to know about us. Anyway, she'll just think we're two guys hanging out as friends." Jongin proposed. Kyungsoo thought about it for a bit. Then Jongin scooted his seat next to Kyungsoo.
"We can have a lot of fun together." He whispered in Kyungsoo's ear as he slowly rubbed his inner thigh.
"Wow, okay, we're gonna have to stay here a little longer." Kyungsoo said as he put his hands over his crotch.
"I love it when you blush. It makes you look even cuter." Jongin caressed his cheek. Kyungsoo's cheeks heated up even more.
"Alright, alright. Just promise me you won't make it obvious in front of Areum? I really care about her." Kyungsoo said.
"In what way?" Jongin tilted his head.
"Like a sister. It's always been like that now that I think about it. Before we started dating and ever since I met her at the age of 10, I would protect her from other guys because I felt like her brother. She doesn't have siblings which made me feel like I needed to be there for her." He said staring at the table.
"When did you guys start dating and how did it happen?"
"It was the night her parents died. She came to me in the middle of the night and she kissed me. She was already crying and I couldn't tell her I didn't like her that way." He was so deep in thought that he didn't feel like he was out in public. He only saw and heard Jongin.
"I've never kissed a girl. How was that?" He asked.
"She was my first kiss and it was totally different than my first kiss with you. I thought kissing someone was supposed to feel the way I did when Areum kissed me. I couldn't compare to anything else. It wasn't magical like they say in the movies but I assumed they only said that because they were movies. Then I kissed you. It really felt magical. It still does like when I kissed you just now." Kyungsoo made Jongin blush.
"Hey, you're extremely cute when you blush too." Kyungsoo said to him which caused his own cheeks to turn a dark pink. He laughed at himself for blushing.
"You must be new to flirting in general." Jongin giggled as he put his hand in Kyungsoo's.
"Of course I am. I've had one girlfriend and no interest in anyone else for a really long time." Kyungsoo laughed awkwardly and drew circles on Jongin's hand with his thumb. Jongin gave him a sweet and lengthy kiss.
