Absurd
illogical
irrational
Mindless
Pointless
Stupid
Unreasonable
Unimportant
Purposeless
Emo
Pathetic
That's how people describe me, that's how they call me.
What else scoff should I receive? Every step I take on my way to my room, i received them. I am on my way to my locker. Just another day. Another hours in this hell. Hoping that this day is going to end, and so my life. Just few steps away, three steps... two steps... one step....
Papers and pen. is what I need. need them now. I need them badly. I want to write because I don't want to cut. AGAIN. Don't let my addiction get me. No. No. No.
I opened my locker and see my razor. Get it and go to the bathroom. My mind said. I'm staring at it. Papers and my pen beside my razor, what should I take?
Demons won, i took the razor. When I'm on my way to bathroom. I saw few people giving me stares. I don't know what they want I'm just walking around I don't even touch them. I look down while walking.
"Hey." Im sure it's another scoff. I ran. I ran to death when i saw someone keeps staring at me. She's a girl, blonde; i can't recognize her face. I'm busy running when I bumped into this another girl...
"Hey watch out!"
"I'm sorry!"
and then after a while... someone's calling me...
I looked for it while running, I failed. When I turned my head I bumped to something rock, something hard., to our stairways, I guessed before I black out.
When I woke up, I saw our school nurse, Thea.
"Hey beautiful you are awake already. You bumped to our stairways while you were running. Be careful next time alright?" and she sat on the clinic's bed where I am.
"I'm sorry, you're bothered" Actually I'm feeling fine when I'm talking to her, no tense, no fear, no whispers from them, no tension. Everything is fine. I stared at her.
"You are not a bother and just talk to me when you need someone alright?! and why? is there a mess to my face?" as she touch her face and look for the mirror. I smiled and said "None."
"Then why are you staring?" she's puzzled.
"Nothing, thank you nurse Thea." I left the clinic. She has postscript. "Hey, better to go home okay? You might be dizzy while on you're class. Here's your excuse letter for your classes, give that to your teachers tomorrow. Okay?" she hand it to me and walks away.
I'm home, as usuall they are watching television. "Why you're home early?" my brother asked. "Reasons, read that."I threw the paper on the couch and I walk towards my room. "Be careful next time." He said. Be careful, weird. Nevermind, I want to rest. I lay down on my soft bed, I barely hear whispers. They're here again. No. stay away from me! please! I shut my eyes down, they're still whispering into my ears! I went to my bathroom, I take some pills and get back to bed. After a while my eyes are barely close....
