Neverland Or Wonderland

Nightmares

*This one has a lot of swearing too. I'm sorry, this is the last one like it for a while*

My nightmare begins as soon as I wake up
When I open my eyes I just wish that they'd shut
I'm so sick of today I've had enough
I don't want to stay
Here
I just want to go
I fucking hate the mirror
Don't make this harder than it has to be
Don't worry don't worry don't worry 'bout me
My nightmare,
is living
My biggest fear,
is breathing
I can't sleep
But I'm only happy
When I dream
I don't want you to care
Can't you see?
My life is my nightmare
I'm falling and I can't catch myself
I'm running but I don't need your help
I'm fine
I'm okay
I dont care what anyone has to say
This is my life and I can end it if I want to
I mean damn I clearly don't mean shit to you
Don't try to act dumb
You knew this day would come
Tell me to kill myself
But you didn't mean it?
What the fuck do you mean you didn't mean it?
Then why would you say it?
Tearing me down so I had to build bigger walls
Corrupting my mind so I had to make longer halls
Don't try to say sorry now
When you've had so many chances
Should've took back what you said now look at these matches
Held one a little too close to me
Don't apologize I don't want your sorry
Yeah so what you finally broke me
in about two days do you know where I'll be?
Far away from you and your words you are trying to take back
You pushed me and you pulled me hoping that I would get mad
Fuck that
I wouldn't give you the satisfaction
But look now see what's gonna happen
You won't be able to sleep
This shit'll haunt your dreams
I hope you wake up screaming every night and understand those nightmares
Don't say sorry now cause bitch you never cared