Just another Day in High school

Writings on the Walls

Shelby

His hands slid over my body. I was clothed, thank god. His mouth latched on to my neck his hand gripping my arm. I was whimpering. I didn't want this. The rag around my mouth had blood on it from all the previous times.

His body pressed against my back. "I'm not going to rape you. I'm just going to play with you. My dear Shelly," his voice whispered in my ear.

I squeezed my eyes shut. Oh my god. His hand ran under my bra and cupped my tit. My arms tied up and around his neck behind me. Tears streamed down my eyes. "Please stop, Ryan," I said muffled from the bandanna.

"I don't- shit," he let go of me and pushed me into his car. Undoing my ties and gag he drove back to where he found me. He went to move a hair from my face but, I flinched and smacked his hand away. He grabbed my arm and chin. "You ever hit me again, I will leave you bleeding, begging me to kill you, got it?"

I whimpered nodding my head. He shoved me from the car and onto the pavement below. I pulled my legs to my chest and I felt tears come faster from my eyes; as he pulled away.

I shot up in bed and wrapped my arms around my knees pulling them to my chest. I laid my head on them trying to make my breathing even. A knock sounded on the door. "Angel, are you awake?"

"Come in River," I said softly. He walked in the room and climbed in the bed wrapping me in his arms. "Why can't I just be happy?" I looked at him as my face buried in his neck.

"Are you not happy?"

"I am but, things just keep happening. I just, I just don't know how much I can take." I said just soaking in his warmth. He really was my rock. The one that held my feet to the ground.

He moved and took my face in his hands. Placing one hand on each side of my face. "You are the strongest," he kissed my forehead. "Bravest," he kissed my cheeks, "Smartest," my eyes, "most amazing," my nose, "Sweetest," my chin, "Girl I will ever know." Then he kissed my lips. It was full of love, tender, sweet. He was intoxicating.

He was killing me softly by just the emotion he poured into the one gesture. My heart swelled. "I love you, River. You are the best thing that ever happened to me."

"You have no idea, Shelby. You have no clue what you mean to me," he kissed me again then pulled away. "Ethan made some dinner."

"Good I'm starving," I said sitting up and throwing my legs over the edge of the bed. I stood and walked to the living area to see stake and potatoes and salad sitting on the coffee table.

"I don't remember the last time you made stakes," I said to Ethan. He know it was one of my favorite things for him to make. It always made me smile. He walked out of the kitchen a pitcher of real southern sweet tea in his hands.

"Well I know its one of your favorites," he said placing the pitcher on the coffee table and led me to the living room. I sat on the floor while the rest sat on the couch.

"Baby, come sit on the couch okay? I'll sit on the floor," River said.

"Nah, I just wanna lay on your legs and eat. Please, I just wanna lay against you."

"Fine Angel," he said smiling.

I leaned against his legs as I ate my food. Rivers fingers playing in my hair. My brother makes the best stakes in the world. Soon I was done and I stood taking my plate and River's plate to the kitchen. I began to scrub the plates as my stomach flipped.

I ran to the bathroom. Bending over the toilet, my stomach expelled all its contents into the porcelain bowl. I felt myself dry heave and River's hand running over my back. "Hey baby, are you okay?"

I reached up pulling the lid down and flushing. I placed my warm cheek against the cold thrown. "It was too much for my stomach."

"You didn't even eat all of your food and you got less then all of us," He said concerned.

"I didn't eat anything for about three days before Tay's and even when I eat what I do. Its small cuz my dad doesn't let me eat," I said my body weak from the effort.

"He doesn't let you eat." He looked mad and I placed my hand to his cheek. He leaned into my touch a low rumble coming from his throat.

"He locks the cabinets and fridge," I said. He pulled me into his lap and I laid against his chest. He held me to him, arms around my waist and his face in my neck.

I felt safe, I felt at home, and for the first time in a long time, I felt loved. I just sat there in his arms absorbing the feeling of serenity. His fingers laced in mine that wrapped around my body.

My ears perked up as the sound of his voice. "I've been here before but, always hit the floor. I've spent the lifetime running and I always get away. But with you I'm feeling something that makes me want to stay." I breathed as he started one of my favorite songs. My heart fluttered it was as if he was singing about me.

"I'm prepared for this. I never shoot to miss but, I feel like a storm is coming. If, I'm going to make it through the day then there's no more use in running this is something I gotta face." He sang it softly. Singing every word into my ears.

'If I risk it all could you break my fall. How do I live? How do I breathe? When you're not here I'm suffocating. I want to feel love run through my blood. Tell me is this where I give it all up. For you I have to risk it all, cause the writings on the wall." A blush formed on my cheeks and I knew he was telling and asking me that I was the love of his life.

"A million shards of glass that haunt me from my past. As the stars begin gather and the light begins to fade. When all hope begins to shatter, know that I won't be afraid." He held me tighter to him. Our fingers laced together as he held my sides. 

"If I risk it all could you break my fall. How do I live? How do I breathe? When you're not here I'm suffocating. I want to feel love run through my blood. Tell me is this where I give it all up. For you I have to risk it all, cause the writings on the wall. Cause the writings on the wall." He kissed my neck softly for a moment and I laid my head against his shoulder.

"If I risk it all could you break my fall. How do I live? How do I breathe? When you're not here I'm suffocating. I want to feel love running through my blood. Tell me is this where I give it all up. For you I have to risk it all. Tell me is this where give it all up. For you I have to risk it all. Cause the writings on the wall, the writings on the wall."

He kissed up my jaw and I turned letting our lips connect. I turned in his lap so I was straddling his waist. My hands ran into his hair tugging on the strands as he ran his tongue over mine. I pulled away breathing in deeply. "I love you're voice," I said.

"And I love you," he said pecking my lips. "I meant it. With you I feel untouchable, angel."

My face began to burn. "You make me feel safe and loved. No matter what River, I will love you and be by your side. As just a friend or girlfriend."

He growled when I said just a friend and buried his face in my neck. "I'm never gonna let you go."

I hope so River because I don't know what I would do without you. I smiled at my thought and relaxed into his arms being consumed by serenity.