Joshleen One Shots: By Joshandcolleen

<9> Life Can Suck

Colleen's POV:

I get back in the car sobbing.

"Baby it will be ok." Joshua said standing by my side.

"I'm leaving my dads funeral! How is it supposed to be ok?" I asked.

I looked and he had tears streaming down his face.

He was crying over me.

Today was the worst day ever.

I got out and hugged him tight as he held onto me tight as well.

I never wanted to let go.

I was sobbing into his shoulder but he didn't even move a muscle.

"I love you baby." He said.

I could speak. He rubbed my back and kissed my head.

"I want to go home. My childhood home." I said.

"Anything for you." He said letting go a bit. He held my hand and helped me in the car.

It's gonna hit me even harder when I get home.

This was my dad.

But he would want me to be happy.

But right now I need to mourn.

Finally we arrive home.

I get up and rush inside and break down into tears again.

I feel Joshua's hands help me up.

"Let's go get into comfy clothes ok?" He said.

I nodded grabbed his arm.

"Joshua I'm sorry." I said.

He looked at me with a look of disgust almost.

"Why? You shouldn't be. Not one bit. You couldn't have done anything." He said.

I kissed him softly and got dressed.

I walked out and saw a painting that my dad painting.

I felt myself being weak.

Joshua was there holding me.

"Want to sit?" He asked. I nodded and went to the couch with him. I put my face in Josh's shoulder.

He pulled my face down on his lap.

"Relax sweetheart. He will always be here with us. Mourning isn't a bad thing but I don't want to tear yourself up." He said.

He just cared about me.

Only me.

"I love you." I said.

"I love you more." He said playing with my hair.

I felt tears coming again but tried to hold them in.

"Let it out baby. It's ok to cry." Joshua said. I jumped up and wrapped my arms around his neck and straddled him.

He held me in his arms until I felt better.

Life can suck.

A/N
if this made you sad blame annabelle_elizabeth