Stronger

Epilouge

(A/N: OH MY GOD GUYS I GOT MY PHONE TAKEN AWAY AND THATS WHY I COULDNT UPDATE I AM SO SO SORRY)

Life is like a house made out of glass

As you grow older, the house gets built up

But then things happen that cause cracks in it

Some cracks are small, some cracks are big, some are in-between

They can be deep, or just a small chip out of the structure

And then eventually, it shatters. Everything is gone, and little shards of glass hit everyone who knows you.

Your pain may be over, but everyone else's isn't

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((PHIL'S POV))

His tombstone was still absolutely beautiful, even a year later. Carved into the shiny, black granite, was his name and then the words "full time internet homo"

It might seem tacky or strange to you, but it's exactly what he always wanted.

I was wearing a nice suit and carrying with me dark blue hydrangeas that I had sprinkled with golden glitter. "I hope you like these......they remind me of you. Dark but also sparkly." I whispered to the tombstone. I swore that Dan could hear me, no matter what others thought.

I lay the flowers down and started nervously pulling at a piece of my hair as I sat down next the the grave.

"Dan, I know you can hear me" I started out, voice choking with emotion already. "1 year, huh? That's really quite a while. Sorry I haven't visited you in a while. It's kinda......." I stopped, unsure how to phrase it.

"I can't stop thinking about all the good times we shared together. Remember 2009? Well, of course you do. That was the best year of our lives. We just had so much fun doing anything and everything together."

I took a deep breath, staring down at the stone and then up at the sky. Seeing his name was too painful. "And it continued like that, for lit-rah-lee the rest of our short time together. When you think about it, it really is short. We only had-" I stopped, choking on my own tears that I hadn't realized I'd been crying. "We only had 8 years. And so much has happened this last year, since you left."

I paused and wiped at my face with the back of my sleeve.

"I hit 6 MILLION subscribers! And so did you! People are still subscribing to you, it's really great. They came out with the new iPhone 8, and you would love it so much. I'm really glad they stopped making them bigger after the iPhone 6." I shuddered a bit at the thought. "Also.......the cancer has been in remission for 2 months. I'm really happy, and I feel great. I know it probably won't stay this way but I hope it does."

"But.....most of all......I've never stopped loving you. No matter what, I never will. This last year instead of PINOF, which I kinda can't do without you here, I did a tribute to all the pinofs before. I'll never forget you. No one will. I love you with all of my heart. Talk to you later, Dan" I finished the last part softly, placing a kiss on my fingertips and then on his tombstone.

I slowly climbed to my feet and walked away, trying not to cast another glance back at his resting place. I would be back, but it might be a while.