The Alpha of Alareim

oh heyyy ;)

So I went through all the chapters I've written and I've come to the conclusion this is an awful story lol... The first chapter is okay but it gets bad after that.

I as a writer don't want to be posting stuff I'm not proud of!! And ugh my god guys. That scene where Aramis eats Caelia out? Ewwwww what was I doing when I was writing that... It was so bad. JUST SAY IT WITH ME. SO. BAD.

The plot for this story is very long and very solid in my opinion, but really I think it's moving along way too fast.

Also, it's so NOT COHESIVE. The characters are all over the place. Aramis isn't meant to be so bipolar!! And Caelia isn't supposed to be bendable!!

Idk what I'm doing right now.

It's very possible I'm rewriting from the end of chapter one or also I could just rewrite it and have it begin at somewhere else. Idek right now.

Also I have this other idea for a werewolf story and it's sucking all the motivation I once had for this one out and now all I want to do is go and write that one!!

Plus I'm having a hard time finding inspiration and also with the first person present tense in this story. I don't like writing so close-mindedly! You guys never know what Aramis is thinking!! Idk. I'm so conflicted right now. AND I had different dialogue and tone in the first chapter that I was so excited to use— and now my story is just some sad pile of pieced together chapters that's just like the rest.

I'm not sure what I'm going to do at this point guys :(

But the probability of me rewriting is high. I'm sorry I know it's not very good news. I just cringe so so hard when I read this through all the way. Yikes!!

Anyway, send me your thoughts if you have any. It would be much appreciated!