It's Complicated

I'm Sorry

I kept tossing and turning. I finally sat up and grabbed my phone to look at the time. I clicked the home button and the screen turned on burning my eyes because the brightness was really high.

I turned down the brightness and was able to see. It was 4:00 in the morning. And I had text messages from Madison shocking.

Madison- Stella we need to talk. In private.

No shit. It's a little late because everyone at the stupid school knows about what happened yesterday. My stomach then started to growl. I sighed and got up.

I tiptoed down the stairs trying not to wake anyone up. I walked over to the refrigerator and opened it to see nothing. Well there was food but you have to cook it and I don't know how to cook that well. I sighed and grabbed a hot pocket and put it in the microwave and waited for it to be done.

When it finished I grabbed a water bottle along with the hot pocket and walked upstairs back into my room. I closed my door quietly and locked it. I set my water bottle on my desk and I sat on my spinning chair and ate the hot pocket.

The hot pocket was the best thing that has happened since I came back. I was enjoying my hot pocket until I heard small knocks on my window. I put the hot pocket down and walked over to my balcony. I opened the curtains and Dylan was right there.

I opened the door and let him in. "What the hell are you doing here?" I whispered then closed the sliding door because it was freezing cold. "I came to see if you were okay." He whispered and walked around my room.

"I'm fine. I guess." I waked back to my chair to eat my hot pocket. I know what you are thinking. How does he know where I live. Well my mom and dad are good friends with his mom and dad.

"You need to leave." I bit into my hot pocket. "I hate that we hate eachother." He walked towards me running his fingers through his hair. "Okay." I set down my hot pocket and took a sip of my cold water.

I stood up and we stared at eachother. "I hate it too." I smiled. He leaned in and so did I. We kissed passionately. He walked backwards and laid onto my bed and I went on top of him. I took off my shirt and started to kiss him.

I kissed him down his neck and went back up to his face. He rolled me over so he was now on top. He took off his shirt revealing his abs. He kissed me once more on the lips and went down. Pecking on my neck leaving me with small marks.

I woke up completely shocked of what I was dreaming of. "What the hell?" I whispered. I got up and checked my balcony and no one was there. I checked my phone and no text messages. I was dreaming. About Dylan!

It's was 6:30 in the morning so I got up and walked to my bathroom. I turned the light on and looked in the mirror. I looked like a mess. I brushed my teeth and took off all the makeup from yesterday.

I fixed up my hair and got out the bathroom to find some clothes. I went through my dresser. I pulled out some black skinny jeans with cuts on the knees and a white flowy shirt. I put some socks on and put on my combat boots.

Once I was done getting ready it was 7:15. I grabbed my bag and walked down stairs. Sadly I have to go to school, it's the law. Life sucks. I was still not over my dream I had. I don't even like Dylan.

I sat on the couch and waited for my ride to school. My mom came out of her room ready for work. On time for once. "Look at you." I smiled. "Thank you thank you." She said flipping her hair which caused me to laugh.

"You ready." She asked getting her keys. "Totally." I lied. We walked out the door and went into the car. We drove to my school while listening to music on the radio. My mom pulled up and my heart was beating. God I hate anxiety. "Bye mom." I said getting out the car and then closed it.