Complicated

Chapter five

"Yes I always have."
I just stood there. Say something, I thought. Then I panicked. Not "Oh I got an f on my test and my parents will kill me." Panic, but "I'm getting chased by a fucking serial killer clown." Panic. All I could do was stand there frozen.
Kian looked down at me, "Ryanne?" I took off running. I've never felt this type of panic before. I mean yes, I have severe anxiety, but I've never became this panicked before. I don't even know why I'm scared.
I could hear Kian yelling for me to stop, but I couldn't. I was blindly running for awhile. I lost track of time and where I was going. I finally tripped and fell and just started crying. I knew I was in a full fledged panic attack by then. My chest started to constrict and I had a hard time breathing.
I felt someone pick me up and start rocking me. I looked up and found that it was Kian. He had chased me the whole time. I tried to push him away but he held my waist tightly, and I didn't have the strength to actually get up. He started stroking my hair and telling me everything was okay. I looked around to distract myself from the tightness in my chest. We were in front of some type of book store. I couldn't read the name but I'm pretty sure it was the little bookstore with a coffee house in it. We were sitting in the grass under a tree with beautiful white and pink flowers. I started to wonder what type of fruit tree it was.
When I finally calmed down I heard Kian say my name a few times. "Ryanne?" I couldn't bring myself to look up at him, "Hmm?" I felt him slightly shift his body. "Are you okay?" I nodded, "I think so." He intertwined our hands and I absently started playing with his fingers. He raised his other hand to wipe away my tears. "Why did you run? Did I do something thing wrong?" I stayed silent. He softly moved my face so that I was looking at him. "Ryanne please talk to me." I sighed and looked at him. His eyebrows were furrowed together and he looked worried. I looked down and said "I don't know why I ran. When you said you thought I was beautiful I felt scared. I had an anxiety attack and ran. Something about you and you liking me scares me." I then looked up at him. He sat there quietly for a while deep in thought. He'd glance at me ever so often. Then finally he said "What can I do to change that?" I looked away and said "I don't know. I don't even know why it scared me." I looked back and saw his face drop. I grabbed his hand and he looked at me and I smiled at him. "I don't know why I'm like this, but what I do know is that I like you." He smiled "I like you too. Can we work on this?" He said. "Work on what?" He  laughed "Us? Me and you?"  I laughed as well, "Yes, I'd like that." He pulled me close and softly said, "You're different than any other girl I've met Ryanne." "Is that a good thing or bad thing?" I said looking up "It's an amazing thing. There's something about you that makes me beyond happy." My stomach did a flip and a million thoughts raced through my head. I smiled at him and said "You too." Then he kissed me.

Hello! Sorry I've been gone for so long. I've been at my dads house, and he doesn't have wifi. Sorry this chapter sucked. I had like no ideas on what to do. Anyways I hoped you liked this chapter!
Xoxo Sierra.