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Ch.9|Lullabies|

UNEDITED
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|•Jaeni's p.o.v•|

The fact that Vernon knew didn't really pester me and so my 'smile' didn't falter, but the fact that I lost my best friend did. I looked at Vernon and soon my smile started to change to a frown, beads forming in the rim of my glassy eyes as I fell to the cold pavement.

My eyes started to flutter shut,

It hurts, too much.

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"Shut up! I'm tired of all your lies Jaeni! What do you mean it didn't mean to happen! You chose to fall in love with him!"

"Chose? Jisoo really? 'Chose'? I didn't choose anything! I didn't choose who to fall for! What do you know!" I yelled back anger and frustration evident in my actions.

"Stop lying Jaeni! You told me it was fake! You told me that you didn't love him! P-please just say it.. Say it again.. That it was fake, that you were only pretending.. Say it again.. Please.." Tears were falling from his eyes and yet.

I slapped him.

Blinded by anger, all this time I gave you so much hints.

He looked at me, tears had already formed in my eyes.

"What do you know?" I said more firmly.

He wiped his tears away along with the glint in his eyes.

"What do I know Jaeni?" He chuckled bitterly.

"You don't know anything Joshua. So stop assuming that you know everything about this whole situation, because if you were put in my shoes I'm pretty you would've given up alrea-"

"Then explain! All I need is an explanation!" He cut me off.

I winced at his sudden raise in volume.

Even if the tears were blurring my vision I still managed to examine him.

A few buttons of his shirt were un done, his hair was messy, the image of him kissing another girl flashed back.

I walked up to him, each step feeling a little heavier then the last, and I jumped bit ruffling his hair, a light chuckle escaping my lips.

"It's something you would never understand", I said as I smiled bitterly.

" I guess you're right, you were never something I understood." He said.

I felt my heart drop as I watched him walk away.

I looked down at my shoes, the tears never did stop falling the whole time we were arguing they just fell harder.

"I love you."

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I woke up at the sight of Vernon walking back and forth in front of my bed, biting his lip, and fiddling with his fingers nervously.

"Verno-ah!" It hurts.

The pounding in my head increased and I crouched into a ball crying because of the pain.

I just want it to stop.

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|•Vernon's p.o.v•|

"Make it stop, Make it stop, make it stop" she kept on mumbling as she lay down crouched into a ball.

I honestly didn't know what to do. I'm a cold hearted, good for nothing jerk and cold hearted, good for nothing jerks aren't supposed to be nice, hence, why I don't know what to do.

What would Jisoo do?

I went up to her bed and sat down. I pulled the blanket over her body and adjusted the pillow. Uhh, what now?

She was still crying in pain and her breathing was very unstable, it was 12 midnight and I'm pretty sure it would take some time to get a nurse up here especially if they're slacking off, probably sleeping as I saw a pile of them sleeping near the front desk on the the chairs in the waiting area when I was going to go to the washroom.

I started to hum a random lullaby while stroking the top of her head.
She started to loosen up and calm down. I continued this until her breathing became stable again and she fell asleep.

I looked at her. Her face seemed so relaxed, but the tear stains on her cheeks give it all away. My eyes softened.

Why?

I shook my head as I lifted her up from her uncomfortable position placing her back down on her back, so that she was more comfortable.

I looked I took my phone and looked at the time.

'1:30 am' right on the dot.

I should go home now, I was about pick up my school uniform blazer which was right, but I realized that I had put it under her pillow just in case she wasn't comfortable enough.

I gently started to tug on the bottom hem of my jacket slightly making it move, stealing a few glances at Jaeni making sure she wouldn't wake up.

But as I was almost about to fully take my jacket I felt a hand grab my wrist making me jump a bit.

Of course it was Jaeni.

I watched as she put my hand on top of her head again making same stroking patterns I did earlier signalling for me to hum again.

Her hands were cold, her face was pale, and little droplets of sweat were forming on the side of her forehead.

I sat down on the side of her bed as I started humming and stroking her head again.

Min ah and I were never together in the first place. She was just an innocent person who got dragged into a measly rumour that we were dating.

The rumours wouldn't stop so we decided to stage a break up fight in front of the cafeteria for everyone to see, so the rumors would stop.

I would've just let that rumor float around and disappear by itself, but I was worried a certain person in particular would hear.

You know the method where they say that if you force something upon yourself you'd end up doing it? I tried to do exactly that.

I know she lost her memories, I know that she found out that I knew, but that moment before she collapsed her eyes may have been blank, and her smile may not have faltered.

But I can tell when a smile is genuine or not. Jaeni has an eye smile. When she smiled at that time it wasn't the same. It was the smile of a person who's been hit so many times and yet they still managed to get back up even if every time, they feel a little bit more burden on their shoulder.

A broken and fake smile.

I wasn't really planning to tell anyone about how she lost her memories, to be honest I was just waiting for her to admit it.

I admit I fell for her.

I admit I like her.

But we all know,

That the bad guy never gets the girl.