I Wont Give Up On Us

Chapter 2

I was happier then ever...Since I've been with Sawyer my life seems to have gotten better, Sawyer's moved in with me, Jack and Finn and it was great. But I wasn't too sure on something. I'm sure that I'm making Sawyer's life worse. I'm to scared to tell Sawyer. So the only thing I can do is write him a letter and tell him to forget about me.

After I wrote the letter, I went up to my room and laid on the bed and cried, I heard the door go. My heart suddenly sank.......I had thoughts going through my head about the letter....Did I do the right thing? Should I of told him face to face? I got up and walked to the mirror and wiped my eyes dry. I put on my dressing gown and went down stairs.

Sawyer walked into the kitchen and saw there was a letter for him, so he sat down and read it. When he opened it, all I could picture was his face and how devastated he's going to be. Sawyer started to read the letter.

'To my boy Sawyer,

This is for the best. I've destroyed your life, you don't need me in your life, you don't know weather I'm going to be alive in the next 3 or 4 years. You don't know what it feels like......to be in this much pain and everyday I think am I ever going to marry you? I don't even know if my chemo will work, sometimes it doesn't. I don't want to break your heart but I know I have to save you. All I want you to do is forget that you ever met me and forget that we were ever friends. I want you to have your normal life back, I want you to go out and see your friends and not spend every night in with me. Who's to say this time the chemo will work?  I just don't....I love you so so much, But this is the right thing to do. 

I want you to always remember that I will always love you and I will never forget you and I will always remember the times you have stuck up for me. You are more then my boyfriend, you are my best friend, my soul mate but this is why I have to do, for you. 

Love you always your angel Sophie xxxxxxx

I walked in after Sawyer read the letter, he had tears streaming down his face, his eyes were also puffy and red. I walked over to Sawyer and hugged him.

"You don't mean this do you babe?" Sawyer asked me.

"I honestly don't a know......of course I don't but......I feel like I'm making your life hell! You won't go out with your friends...You haven't seen your parents in 10 months since you've moved in with me and the boys and it's all my fault, like I said in the letter, I want you to have a normal life, you don't want to spend your days and nights in with me" I said.

"Look, your not making my life hell, I knew what I was getting myself into, I'm coming to everyone of your  chemo's, I don't go out with my friends because I would rather spend my time with you and me and my parents don't get on at all and the reason is because they hate the fact that I'm with you and I meant what I said.....I won't give up on us and you know what.......Let's do it" Sawyer said

"Do what?" I said looking puzzled

"Get married" Sawyer said

"Your serious?" I said.

"Yeah, I want to marry you" Sawyer said

"You haven't even got a ring" I said

Sawyer rumbled around in his pocket and pulled out a beautiful diamond ring.

"This is all wrong," Sawyer said as he lifted me up off of his knee and placed me on his chair and got down on one knee.

"Will you marry me?" Sawyer said.

"Yes" I said with no hesitation and Sawyer placed the ring on my finger and gave me a tender kiss.  

"Now are you sure you want to do this?" I asked him 

"Babe, look at me, I freaking love you" Sawyer said 

"But" I went onto say 

"No buts" Sawyer said 

"When I start my chemo, I'm gonna go through a lot of changes" I said 

"I don't care, I will be there with you every single step of the way" Sawyer said 

"Even when I start to loose my hair?" I said 

"Yes" Sawyer said and kissed me. 

"Are you sure you're ok with this?" I asked 

"Sure that I want to spend the rest of my life with you?" Sawyer asked 

"Yes" I said 

"Yes, of course I'm sure" Sawyer said