My Life with BTS

Apology

Before you read this, it has smutty stuff. There is my warning. (If you don't like it then you have a right to stop reading my book)

"Yah! Chelsea!" Bambam shouted. "Yah!" He grabbed my shoulders and stopped me from walking on. "What the hell is wrong with you? Everyone has been saying hi but you keep ignoring them? Why are you ignoring people?" He asked.

I looked up. My eyes were gloomy and my expression showed depression. Out of nowhere a tear fell from my eye. Bambam wiped it away. He then realised.

"You're not going back to your old self, are you? Chelsea! Don't go back to that state." He shook me.

"I don't want to live. I don't deserve to live. I ... I ..." I stuttered.

"Yah! Chelsea snap out of it! Why don't you deserve to live? You make others happy!" Bambam said.

"I hurt your feelings, Jungkook's feelings and everyone else's feelings. Right?" I asked. Bambam hugged me and stroked my hair. "It's okay." He said. He let me go and guided me to the lunch area. He pulled me up to BTS's table. They all looked up and saw me with puffy eyes. Jimin and V jolted up.

"Chelsea, are you okay?" Jimin asked.

"What happened? Where's your smile?" V asked.

Jungkook then suddenly said, "She doesn't have it anymore. She doesn't deserve to have a smile if she's just gonna hurt others." He stood up and left. Before he could actually leave Bambam grabbed him. Bambam then gave Jungkook a punch in the cheek forcing him on the floor. Jungkook got up and wiped the blood that came out of his mouth. I was shocked.

"Do you know what you're doing you hypocrite!?" Bambam shouted. Hypocrite? "You say she hurts others? Pathetic! I let you date her and then you say she hurts people? You're the one hurting her. You insult her and she doesn't even know what she's done wrong? You blamed her! It's not her fault that she's pretty! It's not her fault that every guy wants to have her!" Bambam raged.

"Pfft! Is that all you'are going to say? What a waste of my time." Jungkook got up and left. Jimin and V stared at me then Jungkook. I broke down in tears. Bambam comforted me for the rest of the day.

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I said farewell to Bambam and went inside my dorm. Jin was waiting for me. Bambam had texted him earlier telling that I needed to be looked after.

"Are you okay?" Jin asked.

"I'm fine. Can I just be myself?" I asked. Jin nodded and gave me a hug. I went to my room. V was there on his phone. I got some clothes and went to the bathroom to change. I was heading to the front door.

"Where are you going?" I spun around. Jungkook.

"I'm going out. Why do you care?" I said coldly. Jungkook pulled me into his room. He locked the door.

"What do you want? Can't I go out? You hurt my feelings and now you're not letting me go out?" I raged. Jungkook ignored me and walked towards me.

"What are you doing?" I asked scared. I stepped back and was against his bed.

"Rap Mon is at a meeting so we can have this room to ourselves." He started to take off his shirt.

"We? Room? Ourselves?" I said. Jungkook pushed me onto the bed and started to kiss my neck. His arms holding my arms down. I struggled to get out of his grip but it only got worse. I groaned as he kissed my jawline.

"Ah, Jungkook... stop..." I whispered. He ignored me and moved his hand down my body and up my shirt. He got to my bra and unclipped it with my shirt still on. "Jungkook-ah... ah... stop... not there!" I breathed out. "Stop!" I yelled.

He stopped. "What?" He asked. I got away from him. I brought my knees to my chest and quivered. Jungkook looked worried. He moved towards me. "Stop! Don't get any closer!" I screamed. He continued to move. "Stop! Get away from me! Don't touch me!" I cried. Tears streaming down my cheek.

"Chelsea... I'm sorry... I didn't mean..." He said.

"Shut up! Get away from me!" I cried. He got up and wore his shirt. He opened the door and went out.

"Sorry." He apologised.

I stayed there for a little longer. I grabbed something sharp. I moved it to my wrist and dug it in. 

"I'm sorry too."

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Hello!

OMFG! That was smutty! I am so sorry if you didn't like it. I am really sorry!

I also apolagise if any of my other chapters were bad.

Thank you for those who continue to support my book. Thank you!

From Author(-nim)