Authors Note: This chapter is just Kennedy's Point Of View so yah.
Kennedy's POV
I ran up to Josh and gave him a huge hug. I didnt care if he was mad or whatever. I really missed him and I was so excited to tell him about Chad telling me to come back. I just wanted to kiss josh and tell him that im sorry and that I miss him.
But my I was brought back from my thoughts when the girl from the music room walked in. I quickly let go of josh and backed up. I could tell my eyes were starting to get watery. I knew what they were going to be doing in here and I couldnt stand to think that he would just forget about me like that.
"uhm im going to go to the bathroom" I went into his bathroom and locked the door. I turned on the tap and did what I hadnt done in a very long time. I leaned over the toilet and shoved my finger down my throat causing me to puke. I quickly flushed the toilet and saw that he had mouth wash. I used some and then slid down against the bathroom door and started to cry.
I stopped crying and was about to walk out of the bathroom when I heard the girl and Josh talking. "who the hell is that?" she had a really high pitched voice. I was waiting for Josh to answer but he was silent finally he spoke. " honestly, I have no idea. she probably thought that I was someone else when I walked through the door."
I was furious. I opened the bathroom door and slammed it close.I walked up to were Josh and the girl were. " I CANT BELIEVE YOU JUST FUCKING SAID THAT." I slapped him as hard as I could. "Kenne-.." he started to say. " Im not finished. You damn well know that you know me, but your right Josh, I did think you were someone else. Because I dont know who you are anymore. You've changed and deffinetly not for the better. Just because your mad at me for leaving doesnt mean that you have to lie about knowing me. Do you seriously hate me that much? Have I caused you so much trouble that you have forgotten about me completely and taken me out of your life. Cause I havent taken you out of mine, but whatever. Its not like you care at all anymore." I yelled in his face. He stood there stunned. " well Josh, if you dont have anything to say then i'll be on my way." Istarted to walk to the door when he grabbed my arm and pulled me back. Now it was his turn to get mad.
"Don't you try and make me the bad guy. YOU're the one who dragged ME here. I came here so I could be with you so we could get better together. You disapeared. What did you expect me to do? you didnt even try to contact me at all. I wasnt going to sit in my room and cry and wait for you to come back. I'm here so im going to atleast try and get better unlike you. You probably dont even care, this is all just a game for you isnt it? Make me do stuff for you and then you just leave" I could honestly say I wasnt expecting him to say that. But it wasnt going to end there. " is that how you feel? Like I havent done anything for you?" he nodded "Well then you obviously dont have a clue about me at all. I do everything for you! Holy shit Josh. You dont get it do you? I love you, and I have since we met. I left for you. I cant get better here. It's just not helping me. I left so I could focus on other things like music to keep me away from Heroin, and its really helped. My life is changing for the better and the only reason it is is because everything im doing is so that maybe I can impress you and you can realise how much I care for you. Im even getting a record deal for fucks sakes becasue ive pushed myself to try and do stuff so that when you get out I can be here and my life can be all figured out and so that I wont be such a fuck up and a wreck." I was crying and I was ready to just fall to the floor crying. But I couldnt. I couldnt let him know that I still can't be strong for myself. I looked up at him to see a confused look on his face. Instead of saying anything I just left. I went to my car and I just cryed my heart out till I could no longer cry.
I looked at my phone and saw that I had a text
'Hey:/ ... -Josh'
I wasnt much but I smiled knowing that he had forgiven me at least a little bit if he was texting me. I just wasnt sure what to do next. So I drove home. On my way home I texted him back.
'Hey.. I know I havent been around for you at all lately. but maybe we could pick a day for me to come visit? I would come on that day every week? If your up to it..-Desiree'
I wouldnt be honest with meyself if I said I was really nervous for his reply. He could easily say he doesnt want to see me at all, ever again. While I waited for his reply I decided to go on tumblr. But first I typed in my http://hurtbyall.tumblr.com which is my url to see what my blog looked like. I scrolled down and saw that I had a picture of me and Josh from when we first met. He had the biggest grin on his face. Boy, do I ever miss that smile.
My phone went off which brought me back to reality. I was scared to even look at my screen to see who texted me. I looked down at my phone. It wasnt Josh. It was some guy I met while I was at Chad's recording studio. His name was Matt. We really clicked so I gave him my number.
'Hey K-Dawg ;D -Matt'
I chuckled. We hadnt known each other for long but we had nicknames. I was K-Dawg, and he was M-Dawg. They arent very good. But whatever. At least we have nicknames. Not even me and Josh did..
'Haha, hey M-Dawg. Whats up? -Kennedy'
he texted back instantly
'I'm by your house, and by the starbucks. Want to get a coffee :) ?-Matt'
I wasnt sure if I should. I mean, I have a lot of things to do at home, and I should be practising my singing and stuff for when I go back. But what the heck I can do that later.
' sure :) I'll be at starbucks in 5 - Kennedy'
I got to starbucks and went inside. I immediatly saw his curly brown hair. I walked over to him and sat down. Lucky me, he had already ordered a drink for me. It was a Java Chip Frappe. "How did you know? This is my favourite!" I laughed. " You told me when we first met.. aha" he chuckled. "oh" I said. We talked for a couple hours then I left.
When I got home I still didnt have an answer from Josh.
'hey just wondering if you've thought about what I sent you earlier :) - Kennedy'
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