Next thing I know we were waiting outside the principal's office holding hands. Then one of the ladies in the office saw and made us separate. But we still gave each other looks. I don't know what it is, nobody has ever made me feel like this before. It's like he is my home. Like i know he will always be there for me, he is my safe spot. I knew whatever happens next it won't change anything. We will still hang out after school, still walk home together, still each lunch together, it's like nothing could ever break us apart.
Then the principal called him in so i got up too but then the most dreadful words came out of her mouth," No, you stay here i need to speak to kevin alone." alone what does that mean!?!? we are a thing nothing you can say or do is gonna change that so why can't i just come in with him? "Okay..." then i just sat down and waited. I hate waiting, in fact waiting could be described as the opposite of me.
It took forever, i looked at the clock when he went in it was 10:25, now it is 11:55. Ugh this is taking forever, i think to myself. What could possibly take this long to talk about. Is he defending me. Is she persuading him to dump me. What are they talking about that takes so long.
Then i had this thought pass through my head. What if she has broke him? What if she asked him about home. What if he is telling her everything? What if she calls CPS and has him taken away from me forever? By this point i was freaking out, i didn't know what to do should i stay put and hope for the best?? Should i go in and demand to tell me what happened??
While i was thinking about this i didn't realize the door had opened. When i got in control again i saw him he was right there asking what was wrong, and if i was okay. I just looked at him. Looked at how concerned he was about me. I knew at that moment that he was okay and that we would be okay. So i nodded yes, and walked into the principal's office.
As soon as i stepped into the office i couldn't help it i started asking all these questions like, "What happened." "What did you say to him?" She answered with," i can't discuss personal business with other students." That is total bs he is my... my... Then i started to think what is he. Is he my special friend, boyfriend, or solemate, ugh atleast now i know what are next step is. When i zoned back into reality she was asking me something but i wasn't paying attention.
"What did you say?" i asked blankly. She looked like she was getting annoyed," I said, so are you Kevin dating?" I looked at her like she was the stupidest person ever. no ... we just kissed in the hallway because we wanted to but it meant nothing and when we snuggle in my room it's just for fun and when we say i love you it's only as friends. " I don't know i guess..." "Well we have a strict no public display of affection at this school and what you did today completely disrupted that rule. I think it is best that you too separate for a while and just focus on school and life." what no i can't do that he is my life he is my safe place he is my home you saw us in the hallway you saw how hard it was too separate us.
"I am sorry Mrs. Johnson but i can't do that." She looked at me with this interest like why would she say that why isn't she listening. Then she spoke,"Why do you say that?" It took me a minute to answer but then i had decided what to say," He is my life, he is my light, i need him to survive. Before i met him was that strange kid that nobody noticed, nobody talked to... Like could've died and nobody would have noticed. But then i met Kevin. He was my light. He was the reason i was put on this earth."
I think it took her a minute to take that all in. Then she finally spoke," well um i'm sorry to have to tell you but you are too young to feel this way. You shouldn't be feeling this way at this age, i think you two need to go to the counselor. And um if that doesn't work then please just keep the affection outside of school." okay i can do that... maybe. I nodded and walked out.
When i got out there he was waiting for me. I felt like the luckiest girl in the world. I know we will last for a long time we walked out hand and hand into the hallway. All the kids looked at me in adore. It's like we were the FCE (favorite couple ever). It was nice to be actually noticed for once in my life. I think the teachers were even cool with it. They didn't tell us no they didn't say you can't hold hands they just stared.
