The next day i saw him at school again his beautiful blue eyes and his lips oh his lips. It took all the cool i had in me to not run up to him just to taste his lips again. But i kept my cool and i let him lead. When he caught up he did hold my hand but that's it nothing more which i was cool with -for now-. He walked with me to ever class and always said have a good 50 minutes when he dropped me off.
During lunch he let me have his chips even though i still wasn't very hungry. We talked about all our interests and that lasted about a whole month before we knew everything about each other, our favorite color, food, celebrities, etc. But i still felt like there was something that he wasn't telling me, something that he was holding out on. But i didn't want to rush anything.
That afternoon he walked home with me and it was like awesome, like it is everyday. But then i realized something that made me feel so stupid. I hadn't even asked him what his name was. OMG, how could i had been so clueless. I was a little nervous to ask but i did anyways. "Okay so ik we have bonded and gotten really close over this month but i think there is still yet something very important that i still don't know about you." " What is that?" ... "Your name ..." "Oh yeah i totally forgot about that, My name is Kevin, with a k." "Okay Kevin -with a k-"
By the time we got to my house we were so tuckered out from school we went up to my room snuggled up in my room and ended up falling asleep. We woke up the next day (early saturday morning). It felt so good to wake up with a protective arm around me. When i woke up he asked me how i slept and i was like," Great, wbu." "Good," he said it while peering down on me with that adorable grin that a love so much.
Then out of nowhere he said the three words that every girl dreams of hearing," I...LOVE...YOU" I think i forgot to breath and all i could do was say it right back. So all we did was lay there and i let him play with my hair and stroke the different parts of my body. All i was thinking was this is by far the best day ever! I think this the most i've smiled like since i can remember. As morning turned into afternoon and afternoon turned into late evening i asked him when he had to start to get home.
Then he got that face again. The face that shows no signs of happiness just pure fear and his face got pale white. He jumped straight up and got his stuff so fast that i think he forgot to zip his backpack up. But before he left he gave me a kiss on the cheek and said sorry if he startled me. But before he left i grabbed him arm and asked if i could meet his parents maybe have some lunch or something. I swear i saw him flinch when i asked then he shook his head so rapidly i thought he would have a seizure.
When he tried to leave again i grabbed his arm again and he shoved me back so hard that when i fell against the wall the whole house shook. Now instead of feeling safe i felt afraid. I didn't understand anything. One moment we are perfectly fine floating well above the clouds, now we just plummeted to the ground and ended up crashing and burning. Now i know what it feels like to have your heart broken.
