The Teenage Years: Read If You Dare

4. Love

If you love her, why push her into the darkness that brings those nightmares. To bring the ghosts of her dangerous past into her life? Your name becomes that boy who left her in her time of need. Who pushed her into a place that makes her feel like she is drowning. Her hands clawing at her throat, yet there is no air. Told her one day she was pretty then the next tell her that she should be dead. Shouldn't have been born, a monster. But truly who is the real monster? 

Heart broken, telling her to walk away. She loved you, a true love that she would fight for you. Even when the tears block her eyes, you still seem to not care. A spineless human, or should I even call you that. All the blame finds a way to place itself on her. Nothing helps. Did you know she wants to die. You could love her like you used to. Why hurt her then? Why fight that feeling and not win but lose the most precious thing, the love that flows through her steady beating heart. You lost her. 

She waited for you, years and years. Until the end. She came back for you. But you killed her. Her love broke every time. Now she will never come back. She learned to never love again. You hurt her more than ever. 

You asked where she was, how blind can you be. Didn't you get the message. She is dead, my best friend, my family. She is gone to a place that you can't hurt her. Out of all the people, you could have saved her. She came to you that night before asking for help. But not only did you hurt her, you destroyed my faith in people like you. I am never going to love anyone because how can we trust someone with the most important thing in us. Thanks from her. You hurt her the most. She had depression and suicidal thoughts already. Think about that.