I finally realized it, the fear that came off you, I knew you had that. The more I stay connected the more I fall apart. I thought throughout my life I would have you but that delusion came from your art. Have you ever felt that no one hears you, that you are alone or that you should of never took that step. I watch as my eyes go dull, as the happiness that I had fails and how I talk to others. Sometimes I wonder should I have taken that place on the board, from my view I see the playing board but is that only me? How do I tell my feels?
I knew you from the start, when I wanted the world and you told me that there was no need for a nerd like me. How could I have been so utterly blind.... I was scared so I stayed and let you tell me all this but hey I'm free.
I hate my body, my personality, the way I let people push me down. I hate my tears, their tears, the people that I couldn't stop from hurting. I could stop their pain as I tried to fight mine, I never knew that they need to know. I went into the shell I am and no one hears the screams of the memories, there was a girl yesterday that I almost called her that name, the dreaded name.
But you know what I hate the most? I hate how you tell me I can be who I am, the girl who fights for her friends, the girl that went through a year of wanting death to take her. You may think I'm weak but honey I stood there through the hate, I got push down slapped and kicked by people who I called my friends. YOU THINK THAT YOU GOT THE RIGHT TO TELL ME I NEED TO MOVE. TO BE THE PREFECT GIRL THAT DOESN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG. I CAN'T LIVE LIKE THAT ANYMORE!
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The Teenage Years: Read If You Dare
PoetryTeenagers live though a lot, this is the time that they start learning more and more and have to begin the points in their life that can either set them up for success or for failure. Their minds are full of random parts, some have been broken and m...
