This are my true feelings that I haven't shared with people before so this is my chance now I hope some of you don't get sad or anything but the thing is that I always shown a fake smile at my house,school, and hide my true feelings from my friends. Everything happened since 3 grade my mom always told me I was never gonna be some one In life that I was worthless
And what they had told me I had a split personality that's had been telling me to die to kill myself, to kill others my head started to be all into becoming a murder but I ignored it until 6th grade that I had meet some awesome friends but I had started to notice that non of them even listen to me and started to think of what my parents had said. T-T
I just had a broken heart since then when my heart had broken all was when I started to like this guy for some fucking reason and made me happy. I wanted to know more about him and become somehow a yandere for him that I even talked to the people who talked to him !!!!
(God damn it stalker) I heard he was single and on the day I wanted to tell him my true feelings for him he told me to help him get this girl he like , so it made me really sad that I started crying and since that moment it was the last time I had cry !!!!! I almost cut myself but it's thanks to KingAsgore and WilliamDeanAKAreynag and Ihatekatsjk who had save me from doing it. But I had told them lies only LIES I am really sorry if I had done that but it's true I know I shouldn't be killing myself for some damn guy but you didn't know how I had felted through this year
I had meet some other friends who had the same experience as I do that I started to get a like on him and become my little brother!!
He told me his stories that it was really sad but I didn't even cry !!! From there when I got home and hide myself from my parents I started crying about what happened to him
I just wanna kill myself for reals but they come with sequences like the people who actually cares for me and would cry if I actually do that
The thing here is that if I was about to die or commit Suicide then you know why now
All this are my true feelings I just try to fit in with you people and accept me for who I am everything you guys had seen from me are lies to make you happy and stuff like that
But the thing I actually wanted was to have someone who understands who wouldn't let go of my side for what ever reason I just wanted a
TRUE FRIEND
