Where do I begin?

Choices

What's the point? I mean we are all going to die

If I don't want to live then why should I?

Because it's 'not right' or because it's 'a sin' ?

What about my feelings? Don't they get a say?

I have been pondering a question recently

And I have put much thought into it

If I wish that I were never born...

Is that the same thing as wishing I were dead?

If I were never born I wouldn't met my nephew

The one who saved me from myself

I wouldn't have five amazing brothers

Or 5 beautiful sisters whom I love

On the other hand I wouldn't have any pain

There wouldn't be a dead beat dad

Or an absent mom to leave me to raise her kids

Sometimes I wish I were dead

To be able to take the pain and sorrow away

I wouldn't have to worry about my grades

Or making sure my brothers brush their teeth

But I would leave them with pain

And that's the reason I would leave, right?

To take my pain away

Would it be fair to punish them for my benefit?

What would it do to my family?

Is my happiness worth their grievances?

The choices I must make...

~Melly