Where do I begin?

What is sadness

You ask me what sadness is, well I'll tell you

Sadness is not know what your going to eat

Because mama don't come home till 9 a.m.

And there ain't nothin' to cook for dinner

So you use your last $10 for a small pizza

But you don't eat because your 'not hungry'

Because you don't want your brothers to know

That there family is broke living in a rich city

Sadness is taking two showers a day

Cause the anxiety of having the blade so close

Yet so very far away physically hurts

But no one can know that you have relapsed

Sneaking into the bathroom at three a.m.

Because the pain has faded and your empty

Sadness is knowing your older brother will die

Way before you are because he's addicted

And refuses to get help, says that's he 'fine'

Even though he was in the ICU two times

And put into a medically induced coma

Sadness is growing up with no one at all

Sent to a home to think your unwanted

People come and go but you never leave

Because your too old for all the parents

There for your unlovable and thrown away

Always wondering why they abandoned you

Sadness... There is no one definition