I have seen evil.
I have seen what humans are capable of.
I've experienced their torture,
Which they find pleasure in.
The pain won't wash away,
Making scars won't help.
The memories have pushed me to the edge of being free.
I hurt my skin,
Just like you destroyed my innocence.
I fell in love with the silver tongued Devil,
For you have caused this self-hate.
When you left my life,
I was content,
But not for long.
The memories,
The nightmares,
The suicidal thoughts.
They came rolling in,
Faster than they were ever expected.
I have prayed to God,
Though,
He did not hear me.
The pain has not washed away,
The memories are pushing me to the edge of being free.
I wished for death,
It did not arrive.
I tried,
I tried,
I tried some more.
It failed just like everything else.
I must forgive and forget.
It's easier said than done.
Why forgive a monster, who has made a Monster out of me?
How can I forget the pain I felt both Mentally and Physically?
I can't,
I won't.
"Forgive and Forget" They said.
If only I could...
-Caelin
