March 10, 2016-um journal entry/poem

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**A/N: Sorry I haven't posted in a bit. I have been going through quite a bit. This post is going to be a journal entry first to explain what has been going on then hopefully a poem if it isn't horrible. Thanks for reading and if you like please vote.

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Okay, so my husband and I got a car two weeks ago and everything has been going great

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Okay, so my husband and I got a car two weeks ago and everything has been going great. I got a new job, we are both working, he got a full time job and just yeah. Well last Thursday, we were in a minor car accident, nothing too bad. The wheel came off on the driver's side, we were only going 23 mph, and no one was hurt; both of us were just scared, both for different reasons of course. My husband was scared because he about lost me, I was scared because it happened in the first place. 

Well let me tell you what has been going on the past few days, so like I said I started a new job doing something I'm very passionate about. I work at a day care, well unlucky for me I got sick (a cold nothing major) and have been loosing my voice off and on. Well the fact that I'm working with kids, am very new at the job, and my voice keeps going out then coming back which makes it harder to get kids to listen to you has been making me frustrated especially since I'm still trying to figure out how things work at the daycare. Well now I am a substitute.


**Poem~Ignored**

I feel worthless

Moving from job to job

All I wanna do is help

Help support us

We need a place to live

Not just relying 

On my mom and dad

I just wanna have more purpose

But how can I when I

Love a job so much 

But it don't agree with me

How can I when I get bounced around

I'm useless

Worthless

Just in my own despair

Of feeling unneeded 

Might as well paint a picture 

On my arm of 

All the times  I've been told

"Its not working"

"Your doing that wrong"

"Your fat"

And all the names I've been called

So sorry that I don't feel like I belong

Sorry for getting frustrated easily 

When all I see is how I feel everyday

IGNORED.

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