Help me [ A Xiuchen ff]

Chapter 6

Chen pov

School. The one place I don't want to go. That is the one place I hate going because everyone thinks that I'm some kind of troublemaker. People are f*cking judgmental, they judge people before getting to know them. Anyway, I got ready for school, when I walked downstairs the maids greeted me and I just smiled back at them. My parents were acting like always ignoring each other and glaring at me like whatever happens before I got here was my fault. No one really knows what goes on in my life they think that we are a perfect family.  When I walk to the kitchen a plate came flying towards me, the good thing is that I moved. "Why are you always a f*cked up?" Asked the lady known as "mom".
       Once I reached the bus stop I saw the guys. I forced a smile on my face and ran towards them and I jumped on Chanyeol's back. "Hey guys," I said smiling. We talked for a while until the bus got here. When we got on everyone got quiet when they saw us, we just rolled our eyes. When I was looking for a seat the guys took the ones next to the that Minseok kid friend. The only space was next to him so I sat down and took out my headphones since the guys got quiet when the sat next to them. I notice that Xiumin as his friends call him started falling asleep which he did.  I'm going to admit he looks cute sleeping I had a small smile on my face the good thing is that no one notices it.
      When we got to school I wanted to wake him up, but the stares his friends were giving me I just left the bus. They guys and I were walking to our hang out place when someone bumps into me. "You aren't even going to say sorry, loser," I said. When I saw who it was I tried so bad to not smile so I put on a blank face. Xiumin just walked away not before rolling his eyes at me. Why did it hurt to me when he ignored me it's like I wanted to cry, oh well it's not important.
      During class, I kept staring at him since he sits one seat in front of me. I thought about him all class period I find him interesting. When I looked in his eyes I saw all the sadness and pain in them it's like his eyes are showing what I'm trying to hide. Finally, it was lunchtime I sat in our usual table when I heard someone asking some something. How I wish I didn't look up because when I did I saw Xiumin hugging some guy. "Woah, it looks like the poor guy who is hugging Xiumin is going to be killed by your glare," said Kris.
     What is going on with me? Why am I feeling this towards someone I just met? What is this feeling that I'm feeling? I guess I spaced out cause Suho started to shake me. When I returned to reality I saw the concern in his eyes I just gave him a smile. He is the only one that knows how my parents are towards me.
  ~time skip~
   The end of school the best part of my life. I'm finally free for her-I mean school for today. I was walking out the door when I saw Xiumin by himself doing something on his phone. I don't know why but I was going to walk towards him when I saw the same guy from before sneaked behind him, and gave him a back hug. Here comes the same feeling as before. Why is it hurting me when I see them together?
      I was walking with the guys to our hang out spot. When we got there I saw the person that I promised myself I would forget. I guess it doesn't always work like that after a year he finally decided to come back. "Hey, long time no see huh?" said the person. "Yeah, I know what are you doing here Kevin?," I asked. He looked at me with a small smile. "I came to know what your answer is," he said. The guy just looked at him confused. I guess that wanted to give us private time, so they just left.
    He looked at me expecting his answer. I thought for a while maybe if I give him a chance I can get rid of those feelings that I get when I see Xiumin. "Yes," I told him. He looked at me to see if I'm not lying. I just pulled him towards me and gave him a kiss on the lips. So it's official Kevin and I are official.
     When I got home I smiled to myself I can't believe he actually came back after a year just to get an answer. I hope I don't regret saying yes to him because then I would get worse not if Xiumin is there to bring you up. Or maybe he will help you fight the battles with your inner demons. What is wrong with me. I have the sweetest boyfriend and my stupid brain is thinking about someone else. I think I'm sick who knows.
    I just hope I can get him out of my head because I don't want to mess with this beautiful relationship that just started. I wish I could know what that feeling is whenever I see Xiumin. It seems like I might need to see if I can get those feelings for Kevin. I don't want to hurt his feelings or lead him on if I don't feel the same as him. I can admit I still have a tiny crush on him.  I just hope I don't regret my decision, maybe I will actually be happy for once.
    Once I got ready for bed I thought back to everything that happened today. I'm excited to see what the future has in store for me. I hope I can get over Xiumin soon because I don't want to hurt myself and my wonderful boyfriend, Kevin. Wish me luck in the future and with Kevin. With those thoughts in mind, I went to sleep.
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