I Love You | A Shoey Fanfic(UNDER MAJOR REWRITING)

Chapter 1~

Shane's POV

Okay, so, today Joey and I are doing video, which would be great if I could actually function properly around the boy. Would it be so hard for me to have an attractive guy friend, with an amazing personality, and great seance of humour without me developing major feelings for him? Yeah, probably. That would make my life easy. For example of my wonderful misfortune, we were getting makeup for the video we're going to do earlier, I was being all flirty, as usual, and he goes and calls me his boyfriend. A normal person would get the joke, laugh about it, then come up with a comeback. Being me, I get all flustered an stupid, and he was just joking for his vlog for gods sake! This is why it's hard for me to be around him. He'll say one thing, even if it's just a slip and barley flirty, and I'll get all flustered and turn into this ball of heart-eyes, and uselessness. I don't know why he hasn't said anything honestly. It has to be noticeable.

Why don't you just tell him? Well you know I would if I knew he liked me, or at least my sex. We don't talk about that kind of shit, it basically irreverent, well not in this situation. But I can't just be like, "hey Joey, you gay, 'cuz I want that dick." And if I just came out and told him I like him, and he doesn't share those feelings, it would probably fuck up our whole friendship. He would end up getting all awkward around me, and me being me, I would be all awkward as well, and everything would just fall apart. So, no thank you. If he likes me, he can make the first move.

It does seem like he's pretty oblivious to my feelings, though. But I suppose me having a girlfriend does factor in there. I don't even like her really. I did, well I thought I had feelings for her at first, but everything just faded. The only reason I'm still with her is because it's safe that way. No judgement. Good backup story. But no reason to lead her on any longer, and to be quite honest, I don't give a fuck anymore. People can think what they want. It'll be over soon.

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Joey and I haven't seen each other in a week, since the makeup video, and we've barley talked, leaving me with major Joey withdrawals. I need to talk to him. I also need to have the 'talk' with my blonde friend. This needs to end. Only if she'd get off the goddamn phone. She's always talking on her phone, never around me though, like she has something to hide. Psh. Its not like she has a big gay crush on her best friend.

I wait about thirty minuets for her to get off the phone, before I call her in. She'd have to be off the phone by now right?

"Lisa," I call from the den. "I need to talk to you, come in here!"

"Yeah, Shane, be there in a minute." She yelled back seeming distracted, as per usual. Never paying attention to who she's with.

"Lisa, come on, it serious!" I yell trying to get her in here. Can't even break up with her, geez.

"Okay, I'm coming!" She gave in, sounding annoyed. I was sitting on the couch when Lisa appeared, she stood in the hall staring at me.

"Come here, and sit on the couch." I coaxed. I was going to do this right. She obliged, but once she sat down, anxiety washed over me. Suddenly I was terrified of what I was doing.

"Okay, Shane, I'm here. What's wrong?" She asked seemingly uninvested in what I had to say. I sighed, trying to get my nerves to calm down a bit. It didn't work of corse, nothing can ever be simple. Easy.

"I'm just going to say it. Lisa, I want to breakup."

"I'm sorry?" She laughed. I didn't quite understand her amusement, but I repeated myself anyway.

"I said, I want to break up."

"Why?" She asked her voice rising.

"Well, I-I'm in love with someone else..." I informed, hating myself for stuttering.

"Oh, fucking great! Who the hell is she?" Lisa basically yelled at me.

"I-Its not a she..." She just starred at me for a moment, in shock.

"SO YOUR GAY TOO!?" She screamed making me flinch.

"Yes..." I all but whispered, looking down at my lap. Ah, sweet confrontation. I love people yelling in my face. To be honest I don't even know if I'm gay, all I know is I really like joey.

Lisa's eyes began to tear up, from rage or despair, I don't know. My own eyes began pooling as well, mostly because if the yelling.

"SO I'M THE ONE THAT TURNED YOU GAY!? Great way to end this, Shane! We have been dating for a year and you're gay! How long have you known?!" Tears were racing down my face now. Dammit.

"Since fucking April okay! Does it make you happy to know that!? I don't see how it could give you any relief, and I don't see how fucking yelling at me is going to make a difference either!" I yelled back, not as loud as her, but still. Both of our faces were wet with tears, mine more out of rage now.

"Leave..." Lisa commanded in a low voice, a glint now showing in her eye that intimated me.

"You want me to leave. Just like that."

"Yes! I want you the hell out! You can come and get your shit tomorrow!" And with that she stormed out of the room. I was crying, yes. I wasn't even sure why to be completely honest. But that's okay. I've finished this, not on terms I would have liked, but I've taken that step and now I'm free.

Sighing, I fish my phone from my pocket and call the only person I can think of; Joey. Maybe not the best idea since we haven't talked in weeks, but she wants me out, and I'm in no condition to drive right now.

"Helloooo Shane!" Joey chimed through the phone once he picked up.

" Hey..." Was all I could say through the meaningless tears. I didn't want to ball to him over the phone, so slow and steady I will be.

"Shane, whats wrong?" He urged, concern seeping from his tone.

"Can you come and get me? Like, now?" I asked thickly.

"Yeah, yeah if corse! What's happened?"

"I'll tell you when you get here, I'm at home, by the way."

"Okay, I'm on my way!"

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Hello there readers! I hope you like the story! I love Shoey, I am a major fan girl! Um ya, I don't have that much to so. If you haven't already go and check out Joey for Shane , and Be With Me! Both stories be Lauren or shoeydawceffa. She is awesome!

I rewrote it. Still shit though. But eh.