Just one look

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Beca's point of view:

I'm walking at the beach. I've been here for a while now, but every day I am thinking of one person. That person keeps coming into my head. When I wake up, when I'm having breakfast, lunch and diner. No matter what I do, she's in my head and I can't get her out of it. The wind blows into my hair and it kinda relax me. My mother keeps asking about Chloe and that drives me mad. She knows that I love her, but she also can't start another conversation with me. It's always Chloe this and Chloe that. She desperate to meet her, but that's the point. She can't meet Chloe, because we don't have a relationship. She doesn't even love me, so what's the point? Why should I blame her? I can't love myself, so why should I let other people love me? Chloe is beautiful and it's an honor that she's in love with me, but she deserves better. I know that I'm not pretty or nice. I'm a badass, but that's only on the outside. I don't want to get hurt, that's why I'm closed up to people, just so they can't have any chance of hurting me. The moment I let Chloe in, she just used me and continue having sex with Tom. Well, that hurts. The pain is like a, uh, how do you say this? Uh, like a splinter in your finger, but then really deep. It's to painful to keep it into your finger, but also to pull it out, so it's stuck there and hurts with every movement you make. For me, it feels like a knife. It's like Chloe has stabbed me in the back. First having sex with me and lie about it, then admit that she still having sex with Tom and third of all she claims that she actually has feelings for me. That she is in love with me. Well, I'm sorry that I don't believe that. Yeah, okay... maybe for a moment I did believed her, but then she damaged my trust again to show me that she really care about Tom. I only hit him because he has been hitting her. I thought she kinda appreciate that I stood up for her, but she didn't. I saw the look on her face when I had hit him. So much fear towards me. That's also the reason that I left. Chloe was afraid of me and maybe she should be. I can't hurt her, I really can't, but I don't want her to get to know this side. This is the side I only show when I'm really mad. I was very angry at Tom because of the hitting, so I had to beat him too. Just to protect Chloe. I will do anything for her, that's the price of love. I love her so much, that I will swim the ocean for her. Maybe facing a shark on the way but I don't care. Anything may happen to me, but Chloe must live her life without any fear. I'm on my way back to my mother by the way. I didn't get any text back from Jesse, and that's strange. He used to text me every minute of the day and now nothing. Maybe it's because of Chloe. Maybe she has talked to him about what I've done to Tom and now he doesn't want to speak to me. Well, I'm a loner and I always will be, even if I am in love right now.
,,Did you have fun on the beach?" My mother looks at me and I nod. Fortunately my mother doesn't have a boyfriend or has been remarried, so she alone. We still haven't talked that much, but I know she's happy that I'm here. It's only for four weeks, but I don't care. The only one I care about is Chloe and she away from me and happy with Tom right now, so I don't have to be worried.
,,Yeah, I did. I also went to the shop actually."
,,Beca, that shop is awe full. What did you need from that?"
,,Uh, just something I need." I'm happy my mother don't ask more. I walk towards my room and when I'm in there and have locked the door, I grab it out of my backpack. ,,Sorry mom," I whisper. ,,If you knew I have this, you will be mad at me." I hold the gun in my right hand and look at it. ,,It's only to protect me, a girl need that if she wants to walk outside right?" Then suddenly my phone goes off. Who's calling me right now? I look at the number, but I don't recognize it. It's not Jesse or Chloe, so it's fine to answer right?
Hello? It's quiet at the other side. Hello, who's this? I ask, but it remains quiet. Is this some kind of joke or something? Who the hell is calling me? Look, if you don't tell me who you are, I'm going to hang up right now. You understand? Now I hear something. O my god, the person on the other side of the line is sobbing. Just when I'm about to ask this person again, who they are, I hear a voice. A voice that I recognize everywhere... it's Chloe.

Chloe's point of view:

,,Chloe, Chloe!" Jesse runs towards me and is out of breath.
,,What's wrong Jesse?"
,,It's creepy. I have a message from a unknown number."
,,And that's why you come to me? For a number? Jesse, Beca is missing! It's already a week that she's gone, I have more important things to do!"
,,Hello! This unknown number has to be from her kidnapper or something. Or maybe it's Beca's, I don't know."
,,Jesse is right Chlo." Aubrey looks at me. ,,It can be Beca."
,,What did that number send you?" I ask Jesse. The idea that it's Beca warms my heart.
,,I'm only one call away."
,,No absent?" Jesse shook his head.
,,Maybe you can call that number Chloe." Amy looks at me right now. That's a good idea.
,,Can I have that number?" My eyes find his, but he shook his head to me. ,,Wtf Jesse, why not?"
,,Beca will be killing me if it's her and you know where she is. She run away because of you. Don't you think she shouldn't be running from you if she wants to be with you?"
,,What the hell are you talking about? Beca loves me and I love her!"
,,Well, Beca knows you are afraid of her."
,,I am not afraid of Beca."
,,She thinks you are."
,,How do you know? Did you have contact with her?"
,,No, I don't. But I saw the look in your eyes when Beca hit Tom."
,,Beca did something what happened to herself to."
,,Did Beca get hurt?" Jesse looks at me.
,,Yeah, but that doesn't matter. I didn't expected her move, that's all. I wasn't afraid of her! Now give me that number!" I run towards him and fight with him to get his phone. When I have his phone, I check his Whatsapp and there the message is. I grab my own phone and dial the number. Hello? My breath just stopped. It's Beca! Hello, who's this? I remain to be quiet. I want to hear her voice. Her beautiful voice! Look, if you don't tell me who you are, I'm going to hang up right now. You understand? The way she say that sentence made me feel like crying. Before I know it, I begin sobbing. I have to say who I am, otherwise she's going to hang up.
Beca?
O my god, Chloe is that you?
Yeah.
Why are you calling me?
Where are you?
I'm sorry Chlo, but you don't want to see me right now. I put my hand on my phone, just to be sure that Beca can't hear me.
,,Do anyone of you knows how I can find her?" I look towards Jesse, Aubrey, Stacie and Amy.
,,I think through GPS." Stacie say. When I return to my phone, Beca already has hang up.
,,Call her back, but outside."
,,Outside?"
,,Yeah at that phone." Aubrey points towards a old cell. I just nod my head and when we are at the cellphone, Aubrey and Stacie are trying to find Beca through GPS.
Hello?
Beca, it's me again. Don't hung up please!
Why not? You're afraid of me and it's better this way. You like Tom and now I'm not in your way. And she hung up.
,,We got her!" Stacie yells. She grab a paper and write it down for me. Los Angeles, what is she doing in Los Angeles? Well, it doesn't matter. I'll go to Los Angeles, but when, I don't know.
,,Beca, I'll come and get you!" I yell and then run towards my dorm.