Just one look

~026~

I just walking around in the hospital. I've not being away from Beca since she's brought here. I don't want to leave her side. She needs me. My parents have called and they are really sad about what happened. I'm tired and a little bit cantankerous, but I'm staying here! Jesse and Aubrey wants me to leave and take some rest, but how can I rest when my girlfriend is dying? I wish I could be like Regina or Emma from Once Upon A Time, that I have to power to heal people. I wish it could just be simple. Like a retro pop-song: "I want you to want me". Boom, end of story. We all live happily ever after. But it's not simple. Beca is fighting for her life right now and there is nothing I can do to help her. That's my frustration. I want to help Beca so badly, but I don't know how. It's devastating! Everybody wants me to believe in Beca, and I do believe in her, but my head is full of questions. What if she gets another attack? Will she die then? What are the doctors going to do if she can't be saved? I don't let anyone pull out the plug. Some part of me wants Beca to wake up and I have to give her a chance.
,,Chlo?" I turn around and see Jesse. ,,Are you okay?"
,,No, what can I do to help her? I want to help her so badly, but I'm scared. I have searched the whole internet to find everything about a coma. Most of the people who's in a coma, never come out! What if that's going to happen to Beca?" The tears are coming in my eyes again. I've been crying every day. Every time I see her lying there. ,,I wish I could lie there instead of Beca."
,,Don't say that Chlo. Beca would be really sad, you know she cares to much about you."
,,Yes I know! The bullet was suppose to be for me, Jesse, not for Beca!"
,,I know and you can be mad at yourself, but there's no need to. The only one you should be mad at is Beca's father."
,,If he dares to take one step towards her, I'm going to kill him!"
,,Calm down. Beca needs you, I thought that you cared about her."
,,Don't you dare to say I don't care about her!" I give him a push.
,,If you love her, why are you here? Why don't you be at her side? I know for sure she's hearing you and that she's missing you too. Are you giving up on her?"
,,No! I-I just don't know what I have to do. I want her back, I need her!"
,,I think that when she feels you, she's going to wake up sooner. She needs you Chlo, please be there for her. She can't talk for herself, so please just be by her side."
,,I will. You are a good friend for her Jesse." I give him a hug and then we walk back to Beca.
,,Chlo, there you are." Stacie gives me a hug. ,,Don't worry, everything is going to be okay."
,,I know." I grab Beca's hand. ,,Sorry that I walked away from you, but it was painful to see you like this. I miss you so much, Becs. Please keep fighting and come back to me."

Chloe:

Took my hand

Touched my heart

Held me close

You were always there

By my side

Night and day

Through it all

Maybe come what may

Swept away on a wave of emotion

Over-caught in the eye of the storm

And whenever you smile

I can hardly believe that you're mine

Believe that you're mine

Chloe, Jesse and the Bella's: