L.A. Dreams

Chapter 31

Kristen's POV

After about 15 minutes, Joey came back in.  "What was that about?"  I asked him.  "Well I guess I should tell you.  You deserve to know.  Sawyer can't handle his emotions and is being stupid.  I gotta talk to him."  My mouth fell open in shock.  I was so sure that everything was fine with him... "Yeah, I totally get it.  If you're gonna leave it's cool.  Can you give me a ride though? Sawyer kinda dropped me off..."  I said.  He seemed really upset by the situation.  "Yeah, sure.  Let's get out of here."  He grabbed my hand and led me outside to his car.  He was so preoccupied that he barely spoke two words to me the entire ride home.  After twenty painful minutes, we arrived at my hotel.  "Goodnight Joey."  I gave him a quick kiss on the side of his cheek.  He smiled slightly at me.  "May the odds be ever in your favour, Kristen.  Goodnight."  He sounded tired, but I still loved it when he said that.  I really loved him.  Wait... I loved Joey...

Kristen's Diary that night

So I'm beyond confused with myself right now.  Long story short I liked Joey, kissed Sawyer, liked Joey, liked Sawyer, and now I think I am in love with Joey.  Is this even possible?  I'm just so so confused.  I've liked Joey and Sawyer for so long on YouTube.  Is all of this just my teenage feelings for their videos coming out?  I definitely feel something with Joey.  When we touch I get the classic butterflies, I tingle, and  I can't stop smiling.  I think that I really do like, maybe even love, him.  The problem is that I can't even look at Sawyer without biting my lip to keep from squealing like a little fangirl.  He's so damn sexy I can't even stand it.  It would be one thing if I could just ignore him and see Joey, but I really can't.  1) I'm addicted to his channel and 2) he's Joey's roommate!  But how can I even be sure of any of this?  Everything is moving so fast.  Seriously, it was just yesterday that I was making out with Sawyer.  How can I know that one day later I am in love?  Is this even normal, like do other girls have to deal with this?  In a month I have to go home to go back to University of Virginia. Is it even worth having a relationship at this point?  Are either of them willing to commit long distance?  Well the more important person would be Joey...  I still feel like I shouldn't bring that up yet... I don't want to kill the relationship before I have to...

Joey's POV

After I dropped Kristen off, I ran everything that happened through my mind.  She had paid to go out with me, spent the night, then kissed my best friend, and begged me to take her back.  The entire time it was her mistakes that screwed it up, not me.  I finally arrived home and walked into the kitchen and passed by Sawyer's bedroom.  He was sitting on his bed, drinking, crying, and clinging to Hitch.  "Woah woah woah... Shoot boy what happened?"  Luckily he wasn't drunk to the point of not being able to think or speak.  "You're girlfriend," he hiccuped.  "She screwed me over."  Anger welled up inside of me, but I tried to calm myself.  Even if this was about Kristen, I needed to keep calm and take care of my best friend.  He needed it.  "She's not my girlfriend, but why are you so upset over her?  You are never upset over a girl."  There was no way I could be mad at him.  He was whimpering and cuddling a small dog,  It was an image that would make girls fall in love with him in an instant, minus the bottle of vodka sitting next to him.  "I don't really know why I'm upset, honestly.  I wasn't even this upset when I ended things with Blair."  His eyes were red.  "Well just talk to me.  What is the reason you are so attached to Kristen?"  I felt like a shrink, but I was willing to do anything for Sawyer.  "I don't even know.  I'd do anything for her.  You know what?  I just need to be alone.  Thank you bro, but I just need to chill out with my alcohol," he said.  I walked out of the room to give him his space.  Would I do anything for Kristen?  Yeah, probably, if she didn't cheat on my again.  When I was with her I felt on top of the world. Nothing could stop us if it all worked out.  I loved her smile, her laugh, her personality.  I loved her.  I think I had known that since day one.  There was no way that I could tell her, though.  It was too early.  She probably didn't love me, anyways.  After I processed everything, I realised that my throat hurt.  Vidcon had taken all of my energy over the past few days.  I decided that it was a good time to finish up my vlog.  "Hey guys.  So I finished vidcon today.  It was so great to meet all of you!  I enjoyed every single one of you, and I'm so so sorry if I didn't get to see you.  Maybe I can see you another time!  My throat really hurts from talking so much, though.  I can barely even talk right now, so may the odds be ever in who's favour?  Oh that's right, your favour!  Good-bye!"