Hello, My Name Is Death (Book II)

Chapter 8 - Anger Doesn't Solve Anything,

I tried to stay calm. I tried to stay calm for so long but after some days I couldn't handle it anymore.

I didn't freak out or cry or run amok. I silently got up from my chair and stood there for a moment before teleporting myself to heaven.

Usually I never went there without a soul but this time it was different. I had a plan which I'd surely carry out.

I went to Cassiel's heaven.

His heaven bright and beneath my feet were clouds. Furthermore it was silent and there had been a small bench made of stone in the middle of all this nowhere. Cas was sitting on the bench and when he noticed me he stood up and walked to me. It felt so good to see him; to see that even though his body was dead his soul wasn't and he was doing alright.

I copied his action and walked towards him as well until we met in the middle of our ways, this is where we stopped. First he seemed happy to see me but then his expression changed. Now he looked confused and worried.

"What are you doing here?" he asked and took my hands in his.

"I'll bring you back." I stated confidently. I didn't want to be without him any longer so I decided to get him back no matter what.

Cas seemed amused by my idea because he chuckled while looking to the ground for a few seconds. "You know you can't do this. You know father's rule says 'No angel of death is allowed to heal someone to safe their life'. I don't want you to fall because of me."

"I know but that's the thing, I can't heal you because you are already dead but you can get back to life." Cas looked confused at me so I explained it to him "You died so you are just like a human soul now. You can get reborn - you just need a body."

He was silent for a moment, he seemed to think about something. After a minute of silence, which felt like forever, he finally replied "But I won't remember you then, will I?"

"No, you won't except if you take your body again."

Just when it seemed like I could convince him I suddenly felt my body heating up until I burned and got teleported somewhere else. I ended up in a bright office which surely wasn't on earth because when you looked outside it was just as bright as inside and the ground seemed to be made of glowing clouds. Therefore the few buildings that had been there looked like some old Greek buildings.

A man was standing in the office as well - an angel to be exact. He had light grey wings and short blonde hair. He was much taller than me, which wasn't unusual because I wasn't really tall, and he looked like an 30 year old - but he wasn't only taller than me, he also looked much more professional than me because he was wearing a black suit with a grey tie which matched his wings and his short hair looked perfectly styled. I, on the other hand, was wearing a simply flowery dress and my hair had been as messy as usually.

"It's nice to finally meet you, sister." the man said and then he added "Unfortunately under those circumstances."

"Who are you and what circumstances?" I answered with a harsh undertone.

"I'm Gabriel." he introduced himself but didn't answer the second part of my question. Gabriel walked around the desk and sat down on a chair.

I lowered my voice because I knew what he meant to god and asked once more "What circumstances?"

He sighed and shook his head while folding his hands "We know what's going on. You want to bring Cassiel back to life but you can't do that and you know this just as well. You can't bring a body back to life which is dead since a few days."

"What about Jesus?"

Gabriel looked perplexed at me and sat up straight "This was an exception. Anyway, you aren't allowed to. So please keep this in mind and return to earth otherwise you'll be gone for a long time - a minute here is half an hour on earth."

"I'm aware of the time difference between our heaven, human heaven, earth and hell and I'll keep it in mind." I replied and tried to sound as nice as possible but actually I simply tried to cover my hate towards all the rules of our father. It wasn't fair of him to make it possible for angels to die and it was even less fair of him to not let us help them when they are hurt.

"Thank you. Goodbye, Azrael." Gabriel smiled at me.

"Goodbye." I answered and after thinking about returning to Cas I decided to go home because I knew it wouldn't have ended very well.

I let myself burn and got back into my house on earth.

My plan had failed but I wouldn't give up. I couldn't imagine a life without him, I didn't even want to try.

I needed a better plan to get him back. I needed someone's help so Gabriel wouldn't stop me again.

I sat down in the chair which was in my living room and thought about a new and better plan. I would bring him back to life, no matter what. No matter which price I might pay or if I need to make sacrifices - he deserved to live.