Constellations

Chapter 1

Rosie POV:

Life is like a constellation. At the beginning all the stars are in place, and you can tell clearly where your life is going. Then one star shifts. Then another and another, and life gets blurry and unstable. When stars shift, they never go back to the way they once were. You just have to cope with the way your constellation looks, and make the best of it. Not many have the ability to do this.

I know my sister, Fay, does.  

When Fay found out she had cancer it torn me apart. My other half was permanently sick. I try to keep my real life and my social life far apart from each other. Fay is all I have and I can't bare the thought of her not being here. At school I'm know as a stupid stereotype of popular. I don't believe in stereotypes there are much bigger problems in the world. I probably seem like a popular because I go to parties and flirt with boys, but I only do that to keep my mind off of Fay. 

Fay is shorter than me and she's paler because of her cancer. I have long wavy brown ombre hair and blue green eyes. I would say I'm pretty in shape, I go for muscle not skinny. Fay's hair started to fall out a little bit after she was diagnosed, but when she had hair it was like mine. She has green blue eyes, that can brighten anyones heart..

Our foster parents are pretty nice and luckily they just stay out of the way. Our foster parents have a son, Josh, and he's really protective of Fay and I. He's a few years older, but we get along well. 

I threw on some blue high wasted shorts with a crop top and some sandals after I took my morning shower. I put on little make up and grab an apple running out the door. When I got to school I walk in, and everyone moved out of my way. I can already here people discussing my outfit. I really didn't care enough to wonder what they were saying. I got to my locker and started unpacking my things trying to ignore all the stares and wolf whistles from people.

"Hey babe," Jason my boyfriend said. He has blonde hair and green eyes. He's on the track team. We've been going out for 2 weeks, he's a nice distraction. Even though I love Fay to death I need some time to myself every now and then.

"Hey cutie," I smirk up at him and peck him on the lips. He grabs my hands and we walk to class together. We're the 'it' couple apparently. Jason goes and sits in the back of class so he never gets called on. I go and sit in the front. 

I wish Fay was here with me. She should get to be in high school and experience love, heartbreak, and annoying buttholes. I've never actually been in love even though everyone thinks that I love everyone I date. I know it's wrong, but I can't help but date more as a sport than for love. Maybe it's the fact that I feel like I need to be loved by other people and when you date someone you're constantly reminded that you are. The teacher walks in and I start to pay attention to the lesson.

I feel a poke on my back and I decide to ignore it. Poke. Poke poke. Poke. Annoyed I turned around to see William. A.K.A. football hottie. Brown hair and blue eyes, hasn't dated anyone even though he could get any of the girls in this school. Well except me.

"What do you want," I sneer at him turning around.

"Do you like cheese?" he asks obliviously.

"What?" I replied baffled. Why the heck would he ask that.

"Do you like cheese?" He asked again. He was clearly annoyed

"Do you like cheese?" I retort back at him smirking.

"Yes. Very much so," he replied with a wink. I fake gag and turn back around before the teacher could catch us talking. I didn't want anyone getting any ideas because we were talking. What was the point of that conversation anyways. I'm just going to try and forget about it.

At lunch I kept debating on whether or not to call Fay. I'm worried about her being alone all day. Like what if something happens, and  I need to be there. Fay and I are pretty much each others only family, except the people who adopted us but they aren't as close to us. 

I was knocked out of my thoughts, literally, I fell to the ground from running into someone. Great just my luck, I look up to see William. I was really getting sick of this kid. I've only ever talked to him for about 5 minutes but his personality is so annoying. That cocky arrogant I-can-have-whatever-I-want boy.

"What do you want?" I ask him angrily while sitting on the ground because I'm to lazy to get up.

"You," he states arrogantly. Self-consciously I pull my crop top down a little.

"Well didn't you mom ever teach you that you don't always get what you want in life?" I retort back. When I said that I saw something flash through his eyes, but the moment it was there it was gone. I look down at the ground and push myself up. When I look back up he's gone. I walk over to my friend Tracy and fill her in on all that just happened. As I was doing that the football players came over to sit with us.

"Hey Jason," I purred while going over to sit on his lap. I raked my hand up and down his bicep while one of his hands was on my thigh and the other on the waist. Nobody knew about Fay here, which means I couldn't talk about her, but at the same time I wouldn't get any sympathy. Which is a good thing.

"Hey Baby, want to come over tonight?" He whispered in my ear making me shiver. The shiver was from disgust I know what he was wanting to do, but I'm not that type of girl. I probably seem like a huge player because I've been flirty with Jason and talking to William. I guess you got to look the part.

I was about to come up with a polite excuse, but then my thoughts drift to Fay and my parents. Gosh I miss them so much. They would be so disappointed if they knew how I acted at school. My blood running cold I answer in a short no. I got off his lap and go sit next to Tracy again. 

I smiles and laugh pretending to be interested in the school drama and rumors. Though to be honest all I could think was how stupid it was. I can't believe that all these kids talk about is who's dating who and what parties I've missed. Don't they realize there is a war going on or that there are people out there with much bigger problems than theirs. With that I just go along with everyone else so they don't get suspicious. 

I couldn't help but feel like there where eyes on me. I turn around to see William staring at me with curiosity in his eyes. He can't find out about my life or he would tell the whole school. Giving him a cold glare I get up to leave the cafeteria. 

When I get to my locker I just decide to skip for the rest of the day. The bell rung for passing period so people where whistling at me and trying to touch things they shouldn't. I just glared at them all and walked out of the school and headed to the gym. Whenever I'm mad or frustrated I always go to the gym. 

All the people at my school annoy me so much. When I get to the gym I go straight to the treadmill and hop on. When I'm running it's one of the few times I allow my thoughts to wander. I wonder if it's really worth all the world of trying to keep my two lives apart. I just really don't want people to give me sympathy or tease Fay even though they don't know her.

 It's so much easier to be the cold hearted popular girl at school. Nobody cares what your personality is like, as long as you show some skin and look hot. I don't want people to ask questions about my life. I'm not ready to talk about my parents death. At the thought of them a stab of pain goes through my heart and I run a little faster. 

Fay deserves so much more than she's gotten. She's the one that deserves to live her life to the fullest. She doesn't deserve to have the chance of dying young. The thought of Fay dying killed me a little on the inside. I wish I could switch places with her. It's thoughts like that, that make it easier to be cold hearted at school. I quickly push the thought away and blink my eyes trying to get rid of the tears. I increase the speed after that.